Today is my first day clean in about 2 years , today everything changes ... I know it's gonna be hard but I want more with my life..... I'll let u all know how I get on , I can't lose anymore ..........
I've been doing coc for about 6 months now and im trying to get off. But its just so easy for me to get and I really like it. I spend about 120 every other day. Anyways just wondering how do you go about finding support groups or classes in my hometown...
I can respond only by compering yet again another casualty, just an un-sage powerless sloth, sharing the abode, the Cocainundrum. I, too have medicated daily in my case for over a year. I do not do it as a recreational object of bucolic gregariousness, but rather as a painful momentary and ephemary plaster over the conundrum that keeps digging underneath and all over. I have an infection in the nose, and willl have to undergo a massive and intricate surgery to reconstruct my eroded septum. I am always in atrocious pain, day and night. I can afford it, but i will dissapoint everybody when this surfaces. It will surface. And I will die very soon. SO at this particular moment in the chain, I just hope that the terminal isn't located somewhere too near culminating agonies, fear and shame.
YOU NEED TO STOP. further gaze past your fears, and build up over this semblance of an old you.
Understand that cocaine is just a Panopticon. its structure stands for its frame is solely your fear.
Ive been doing cocaine everyday for the past 3-4 months, at least $60-100 a day. I have a full time job as a 1st year electrican. I live with family and they have no idea of my actions. I make about a thousand dollars every 2 weeks and since i have no bills i should have quite a bit of money, but i dont, im applyin for credit cards maxing them out and tryin to keep paying them off thus drainin my account. Im aftaid my family will find out soon when they try to take money from my account, i need tips to help stop any info will help!!! Thanx
Cocaine is very addictive it dont take but 1 or 2 hits to hook you I no that was the drug that I used along with Alcohol and pills. It will make you sell every thing to get more. When I quit I was at the bottom. if you leave it alone now you will be better off. But if you continue you will sell everything to get more. Try NA you will learn from members that have been through what you are going through one of our meetings was at a place called Low bottom. You dont have to go there if you quit now.