Hi guys

[Lovemyfam2000]

Well been two weks is it normal to sweat real bad at night sometimes I change my shirt twice plus the little sleep I do get I have nightmares anyone else go throu this

[solost170]

lord no hun it does not bother me at all, medicine is not the problem it was me that was the problem I took to much and like it way to much and even thou mine started out innocent enough it turned into an evil monster who stopt caring what I did I had to have my dope. and couldnt function as human being without it. and if you are in terrible pain hun there is no need to suffer medication is something that is there to help ppl who are in pain its when we abuse it long after the pain has gone is when it becomes a problem. which is what happened with me one was never enough it was two and three at time or more. so dont feel bad that you have to be on pain management there are lots of us who have been there. and your son is very young my daughter is sixteen almost seventeen and my son is thirteen so they were older when i went through detox but you are doing the right thing by talking to him and being honest I hold nothing from my kids and they dont me either communication is the key to healing hun. so you have stumbled and fallen many of us have been there my aunt fell off the wagon for years until she finally as she says got it right it is a journey hun and learning exp we have to fall sometimes but the main thing is you love your son and he knows that try not to wrry to much about the past and try to make everyday count the guilt will kill you and make using so much more anticing. addiction is addiction in any form hun your son loves you do the best you can and be there for him you would be surprized in how understanding lil ones are. mine are amazing even when I using they loved me and understood even when i did not deserve it. but you deserve a good life for you and your son and hun anytime you need to talk I'm here for you we addicts stick 2gether and please never think you offend me in anyway. love and light solost

[SbeccaRue83]

Thank you for this! I have so much to make up to my 7 year old son, all I've put him through!  I am an extreme alcoholic! I am going to say something I prey it doesn't sound like I am bragging or anything cause that is the last thing I want to do...but a large part of the reason I was drinking so heavily (a 1/2 gallon of straight whiskey a day) was because of the amount of pain I deal with on a daily basis and because I am only 28 years old a few doctors told me they couldn't help me because I am young, but I have finally found a RA doctor and a PCP would understand being I am only 28 I shouldn't have to deal with the amount of pain I am in, so they are giving me medicine and yes I am scared of becoming addicted to them, so I have gave them to my mom who was a nurse for 37 years and understands I am an addict and is only giving them to me as needed and as prescribed, I am on the lowest dose of fentenyal patches they make an an occasional pain pill for break through pain, well the other day it totally made me cry my  son said "Mommy I am so glad you found a doctor who is finally helping you, I like playing with you mommy!" I can't count the number of times I was hurting so badly I couldn't get off the couch to play with my son, even though he was begging me too! Or the number of times he begged me not to drink and I would anyway to kill some of the pain, I feel horrible about it and  I am PREYING since he is 7 years old I have enough years to make up for the amount of stupidity I've done in those 7 years..but I also understand that if I continue to fall off the sober wagon and go back to drinking and being stupid he will eventually realize mommies just a drunk and never going to get better. But hearing what your very intelligent (it sounds like) daughter had to say about it, makes me feel a little better. I try and talk to my Nicholas about what he's been put through and how bad I feel for what I've done and he seems to understand and is just glad he has his mommy back who likes to play and who isn't drunk! I love this website it gives me so much hope for my future. I haven't had a drink since June 3rd! I really prey me talking about the medicine I am on now doesn't offend or bother you!

[solost170]

I understand that to about feeling bad, I felt awful about the fact my kids had to suffer through mom being sick and not being able to do the things that I normally did like being super mom. and it hurt me to see my kids watch me suffer but my darling daughter put it into perspective for me. I told her I was so srry that I was sick and I couldnt do all the things I normally did, cause detox knocked me on my butt and she said mom its ok we understand and we would rather you be sick for alil while then to be sick forever this will go away mom and you will be healthy again. we like you better off pills then on them and if we have to do without you being super mom for awhile then its a small price to pay to have mom back for the rest of our lives. that hit home for me and I realized that it was just like a sickness I had to ride it out and when it was over I diddnt have to do it again. and now my  kids have there mom back and yours will to it is a great thing you doing for you and your family and when it is all over you will look back and think wow I did it. it truly does get better hun and easier each day will bring something better each day a sympton will slowly start to go away.

[dominosarah]

You are doing something really wonderful for your family, you are getting you back~

[Lovemyfam2000]

Thanks you guys I'm doing ok hanging in there I feel bad for my family cause the way I am right now ya the sweat is nasty last time I quit I did not have that but I'm glad u guys are saying its gonna get better

[solost170]

aww hun yep this is totally normal I sweated like crazy for almost a month I posted once about how my deodorant diddnt stand a chance, I was having to change clothes constantly and apply deodorant all through the day, and I had nightmares plus I would dream about pills then Id wake up freaked out thinking I took one it was wild so everything you are experiencing is so very normal and it will pass, the sleep thing is truly a booger it took a long time for that to return to normal so hang in there two weeks is great congratulations you should be turning the corner on all this very soon. I think it was like day 16 that the sweating finally started to quit. I just noticed one night that I wasnt sweating anymore and jumped around for joy. hang in there lovemyfam your milestone is just around the corner you are so close... you are doing great solost

[dominosarah]

Yep this is pretty common.  You should be almost thru it.  I think the night sweats was worse than the lack of sleep.  Are you feeling better mentally now?????