Day 10...double digits babyyyy

[tigerlily75]

Well day 10 is here! Im in the double digits now!!! And im doing pretty good! Cooked a big Asian themed dinner last night, up to everyones standards lol! And I already finished my new book by Janet Evonovich! Felt good to do something for me! Mostly all of my physical symptoms are gone, a little achy, restless, and oh the mental! I have always had depression and anxiety, but man this is tough! But everyone knows im a fighter and trying hard to keep it positive no matter whats thrown my way! I think im going to go stay with some friends for awhile. My sons last day of school for christmas break is tomorrow. Oh, and i found this book i picked up at a yard sale or somewhere, not sure what its about, but its called beach music...and since those are my 2 favorite things i think ill read it! Peace love faith trust and pixie dust!

[tigerlily75]

Hey Gnarly!
Oh how I've missed you! I never would have made it any time without you before, so it makes me thrilled to see you comments! And yes, I'm going to start na!

[gnarly_1]

Hey girly good to see your doing better congrats on 10 days your off to a good start....I think a little bird told me you where thinking of trying out a /n/a meeting....DOOOOO ITTTTT it will help it is how I stay clean and many others keep posting for support.........
......................................Gnarly............................................

[tigerlily75]

Thank you msdelight! I did make it!

Brandi, thanks! And yes I love reading, its such a great distraction, and definitely helps me melt away to a different place, helps me escape my crazy life, and even makes me do everything else better because I feel better getting some me time! And I can read it anywhere, even while my diva daughter plays or watches cartoons!

[brandiroars386]

10 days is awesome!!!  So proud of you.  Reading is a great distraction, it's awesome when you can melt into other places.

[msdelight]

God bless you tigerlily and congrats on the double digits! You made it! Yah!

[tigerlily75]

Of course my twin has read it lol! I'm on like chapter 3 and it seems really good so far! And yes I've always loved reading, its the best distraction and takes you to a whole different place, another world! I have really gotten away from reading, being a single parent, and then of course the opiates took everything else from me....

[Kbusymom]

So happy for you!! Beach Music is a great book, I love Pat Conroy.  I hope you enjoy it.  Books have helped me through this journey so much, they keep my mind occupied and take me to different places- very therapeutic.  
Keep on keepin' on, your attitude is uplifting.  

[tigerlily75]

Thanks open mind! I'm staying on this roll this time!

[tigerlily75]

Tooter,
Never stop posting! We all need you here! And don't worry about your comment, we all say things that come out wrong or out of some emotions normally, its bound to happen when we are going through recovery! Everything is cool, and like I said, I look forward to getting clean with you!

Vic,
Ha I just make it look easy lol. Its not always for sure! I'm just trying super hard to keep a positive attitude and keep it moving and realize like Pat says it is what it is lol! And I'm trying to push myself as much as I can to get that dopamine going! And I do eat pretty healthy, except my big awful secret, I never eat breakfast lol! Definitely need to start! But I eat lots of lean meat, mostly chicken or fish, and tons of fruits and vegetables! Plus I'm on a few antidepressant and anxiety stuff, so that probably helps with the dopamine! But, its still not easy and all sunshine and roses lol! My emotions are all over the place! I'm cramping on my cycle, aching all over, and you made me think when you said all this in 10 days lol, yes and I've also had plenty of crazy going on in 10 days too lol! Started my cycle, which female problems were my original issue, had my mom move out and back in, had the police at my house, almost got arrested, got kicked out of my house and oh my crazy life! But, I have stayed strong positive and clean through it all, hmmmm maybe I am wonder woman lol! :-)))

[OpenMind24hours]

Congratulations on 10 days Tiger! You got this thing on a roll now, keep on keeping on!

[VICourageous]

Girl..You are doing all of this in 10 days..WOW!! I am so so so so Happy for YOU..You make this look easy..What are you putting in your food..hahaha
Do you have some secret to getting those Dopamines going..lol
Really I am so happy for you..YOU are just Ticking away and it looks good on you!!!

Bless

[tooter212]

Tiger, thank you, I don't mean to be mean it just comes out. I really am sooo sorry. Your a lot stronger than me/!! Thankful you didn't do anything crazy. I almost quit posting it made me feel so bad. Just let it be a reminder not to put anything in writing or say anything until you get your act together. Glad your doing so good. Hope the cramps go away soon.

[tigerlily75]

Sonrissa
sun riser sunshine
so fitting:-)))
you are brilliant!
I don't have a heating pad anymore BUT I have something better! I went and bought a heated blanket a couple weeks ago, and I convinced my daughter to lay with me and watch a movie, now we are snuggled together in a nice heated blanket, she's watching a movie and I'm reading my new book! Ahhh couldn't get better right now!!!

[Sonrissa]

Way to go on the 10 days, Tiger! Your attitude is a real difference maker. For the cramping, well I used to get that really bad. The ONLY thing that helped me (this was long before I discovered the joys of pain pills ;) was a heating pad on my abdomen. It relaxes the muscles, and stops the cramping. If you don't have a heating pad, warm a damp towel in the microwave and then wrap in a dry towel or cloth, and lay across your abdomen. Hope you get some relief. Take care and keep up the straight and narrow.

[tigerlily75]

Thanks mommymarie! Your doing great too, I just commented on your clean time post! Congratulations! You are doing awesome too!

[tigerlily75]

Thank you all for the congrats! I was 2 days before a month clean, then my "best friend" gave me that opana, and others, and I had to start all over! So that may be why I'm not as bad as a usual day 10...but I am on my monthly cycle and female problems are what got me here, so I'm having quite a bit of pain and cramping! Taking Midol and Tylenol, not really cutting it...what should I do for legitimate pain???

whollymoly, Thanks! And yea this mental stuff is a bear! And I just got done with first chapter. Already the mom commited suicide and dad and daughter moved to Italy. Looks like a good read. Its by Pat Conroy, never read a book by him, has anyone else?

Acting Brand New, thanks! Double digits feels great!

tooter, Thank you! That really means a lot! I have to say your comments the other day really got to me, and had me thinking some crazy things. Luckily, I'm still here and didn't go through with it, my kids need me. And I also understand the wild rollercoaster of emotions, and it was a pretty unbelievable story, I can't make this stuff up lol! But I know we are all going through so many emotions and I didn't realize you were only around 60 days clean, so I know at this point everything doesn't come out how you mean it. All this to say I forgive you and look forward to getting and staying clean with you!

Peace love trust faith and pixie dust! That's what we all need to make it!

[mommymarieme]

Congratulations on your double digits tiger!! You are doing so great! ;)

[tooter212]

WOW great going I remember what a great feeling that was hitting double digits, Doesn't sound like your having to bad a time of it. Just keep it up. God Bless

[ActingBrandNew]

Congrats on the double digits!

[Whollymolythathurt]

Cograts Tiger on double digits....great job.

Im with you on the mental thing.....whew!!  Its a bear for me right now because of how i used to be.

Keep up the great work get that 2nd book read.