tramadol withdrawal buddies?

[brownvelvet]

Not so much a question as a call for support. I am 12 days off Tramadol at about 10 50 mg a day. I also had a Xanax thing but that's been over for months. I am awake.... of course... and reading through endless posts of people in my position. I am worse because I took it never for pain and mostly to cope with... life.... its humiliating really.... on and off  for five years I guess.... so anyway I don't have the worst withdrawal symptoms but the insomnia and restless legs make me want to cry.....I just want to sleep... without drugs.... just fall asleep.... like normal people do. I take melatonin and herbal teas and baths but only time will heal this horror...I have Tramadol in my house but no urge to take it...I have xanax and clonazepam too and lack of sleep makes me want them but I am trying to avoid that so the chemicals in my brain can recover. Anyone else awake with this?

[brownvelvet]

So I didn't take anything last night and I slept the most I have in two weeks.... still not great but much better..... tonight I am rising again big time..... sort of frustrating to be sure.... its day 16....sigh....
And today I wanted to take Tramadol while I was at my moms... issues there..... but I didn't...

As for flushing no real use to that I'm afraid clean.....I have ready access to endless supplies..... I just have to decide not to use them

So I am proud I didn't take anything last night or today.... and I had a good day.... but tonight I find it hard to sit still long enough to write this....

[clean_in_ks]

Congrats on making it to Day 14!!!!  That's HUGE!!!....and now you have 4 days off work so that's an added bonus!!

Since you recognize that you "used to have a thing" for Xanax and you've just said that using Xanax will "just make me use anything".....it's definitely time to get rid of the "safety nets" sitting in your house.  FLUSH the Trams AND the Xanax.  Your head knows those pills are in your house....and it will only fuel the voices telling you lies to "just take one".  For us addicts there is no such thing.  And if you truly want to be done and make it thru to the other side, you HAVE to flush those pills!!  It will be hard, yes, but it will eliminate the temptations and quiet your head.  You will feel FREE!!

We don't need a "safety net" if we are truly done....right?

If you haven't tried the family of nervine botanticals (like passion flower, valerian root, lemon balm, chamomile, etc.) there are teas and supplements that will help to relax you...and there is no rebound sleep affect from those like with benzos.

I'm rooting for you....and hope you'll have a flushing party tonight ☺

[brownvelvet]

Another long day at work and scarily today was first day I had even a hint of desire to take tram.... it was fleeting but it scared me....

Now I'm exhausted again at night and I just want to sleep...I don't have desire for tram but I think of the Xanax I have.... and the promise of sleep.... it is very hard to just lay here awake..... again....

I don't have to work for four days but I have lots to do and that voice inside that always says.... just take what you need.... you are too busy to be awake at night,.... jut this once... that when I know using Xanax will just make me use anything

I wonder how many like me post on this site only to be lost when they fall off the wagon? I have read a lot of posts and they are going strong... and then nothing... nothing but other kind people trying to reach them with a hello...I don't want to be one of those

[PlowBoy36420]

Keep your head up, those symptoms will pass. I haven't had a spell with the restlessness in my arms and legs in some time (knock on wood) but that doesn't mean it won't slip up on me. I'm getting some rest now, we'll quite a bit, seems like I will sleep good till 1 or 2 in the morning before my body says it's time to get up lol. I'm still sore in my lower back but it don't seem to bother me until the end of the day. I'm ready to see what this next month has in store for me.  I'm feeling normal so that's a major plus.
((John))

[vicki595]

Do you have any Epsom salts in the house? A hot soak with a cup of Epsom really helps. Also, Tonic Water works if you can gag it down...Tomorrow you can buy some Hyland's Restful Legs at Walgreens which works great.  I hope you get some rest, at least. I know this is unpleasant. Try a heating pad. Lay it across the top of both legs on high and be careful not to burn yourself.  I hope you're taking some multivits,too.

[brownvelvet]

Ugh
rls and it is 11 pm....I hate this time of day... tired want to sleep.... stupid legs....

[brownvelvet]

Okay lucky day 13 I guess....
I was so desperate fro sleep I caved and took a clonazepam to sleep last night. I did sleep and felt much better today but I think it just delays the inevitable sleeplessness to another night... like tonight....i take melatonin and I would try to avoid all caffeine but I get so little sleep I can't function without it. I do avoid it after 2 ....
Plowboy I can't wait to say I am at 29 days...I think I have to sleep better by then....I hope so. I already feel better everyday. I have no urge to take Tramadol even when I am having as much stress as I did before which is when I would take it but I know my danger isn't now it is a few months from now when the horror of withdrawal has past and those little Trammy thoughts come calling
Jerry can I hole you to that day 14 number? lol one more day???

All done my heart goes out to you.... day five.... ugh day five.... it gets better but for me then I was still suffering massive restless legs and unable to lay stillenough in bed to type this and then there was the sweating... and the crazy fatigue during the day.... but most of that is all gone just insomnia and some rls now... but when will it really end? I wonder what normal people fall asleep like???

[Jerry198]

the Trams really do a number on our bodies and if your have read all the posts then you know whats up and that it will just take time to get back on track the best thing is that around day 14 you will feel much more normal things will be funny and sad things even sadder but try and take this weekend to look at the good things that you have accomplished and what the world looks like from a clear mind best wishes.

[PlowBoy36420]

Exactly,  soon you will be 30 days in and trust me, you'll feel better. I still have problems being exhausted but I can move about all day before giving in to bed lol.
Lots of sun and hot baths

[Alldone30]

Hey brownvelvet! I'm in you're exact situation except I'm only at 5 days. The restless legs and arms are the worst symptom but then I also have horrible backaches and the chills and sneezing. Those are starting to pass but I have no energy at all! I found that just moving forward keeping your mind off it and laughing helps as stupid as it sounds! Warm baths heating pads. You can do this! I was on 25 plus pills a day! It's rough but soon you will be back to normal!!! Just keep a positive mind! :)

[PlowBoy36420]

I had the same problems, I'm at 29 days clean from 8+ 50mg Tramadol per day. Just within the past week I have started to get rest when I slept (long as my lower back allowed) I just bought my first bottle of 3mg Melatonin to see if I can get my first full night of rest. I haven't taken anything else other than advil or bc powders, I can say I do feel 100% better than day 1 and 95% better than day 12. Just keep fighting for the next minute,  hour, day, it will get better I promise