Being tested

[SmilingBright]

Ok guys I need your support and prayer please.  Being tested right now!!!  
My hubby was sick and went to dr today.  He made me pick up his scripts at pharmacy.  One of them being codeine cough syrup.  

My blood is boiling!!!  So frustrated that something like this could derail my progress!!  I hav head it in my possession for Over an hour and haven't even looked at it.  Keeping busy. Got on treadmill, cooked and took bath!

Just flustered and lots of anxiety. Im
Sure it will be worse when hub gets Hm cause he loves that junk!!!!! I did too.  

Please help w some kind words.  U guys are always so amazing.  HELP

I thought about for a second not telling u all and then taking a sip.  But nixed that idea quickly and decided I needed to post!!!  

[VICourageous]

OHHH Just remember the time that you have invested into getting clean..Trust me...A long, long time ago I took a Lorazepam because of the high anxiety..wow I will tell you not only did it make my head feel funkie..It gave me deep darkness...I felt like it knocked me from my spirtial high..This was over 6m ago..So I know for sure that I love being "UNDER THE INFLUENCE OF MY HIGHER POWER"...You go girl..You do not want to feel darkness inside..lol

[SmilingBright]

Oh Vic, but I'm being tested like a sob right now!!!!!!  Argh. Lol

[VICourageous]

Oh there you are girlfriend..I was looking for a new inspiring, poweful, positive, spritial new post...I even sent you a PM to see if all was good..You are strong so I do not even worry about you going back to use..One day at a time...Right!!!!  lol
vickie

[SmilingBright]

Btw
I appoligized to hubby. Then he told me if I think I need a sip to feel ok then take it!!

I told him NO!!  A sip is never enough!!  Neither is a pill ever enough!!!  Im
dONE!!!!!!

[SmilingBright]

I know bubby!! U r right. Had to appoligize to him for brewing so mean. Thanks for the advice.  

[toothfairie]

yes what Bub said!  i agree...enjoy your weekend...and maybe he will follow in your footsteps soon girl....i hope so, until then enjoy your new clean life!!!