CAN A PSYCHE CUT YOUR DOSAGE WITHOUT TELLING YOU FIRST?

[shugalug]

This is sort of a follow up to my earlier post  about 2 weeks ago, so I'm repeating some of it a little. I had missed my appt with my Psych. I rang to apologise and explain why. I was due for the medication valium so asked the receptionist if she could ask my psyche to mail it. I've posted about all this before so won't elaborate again. She has instructed my pharmacist to only dispense 7, enough for a week. She had been prescribing 2 a day, now suddenly it's 1, and usually I was able to get the full script for 50. She hadn't told me she was doing this. I am struggling to wean off Tramadol. I needed the 2 valium from her, plus I was getting prescribed 2 a day from my GP, making a total of 4 daily.  I'd re-scheduled an appt to see her on the 10th April. I'd forgotten to ring for another 2 scripts she prescribes for me, zoloft & zopiclone, before the Easter hols. Rang up after and left a message. Yes, the scripts were mailed, but now she's also cut me down 1 tab of the sleep med zopiclone. I'd been relying on valium to help me with Tramadol withdrawal, then when that was cut down, I foolishly turned to zopiclone to help with tramadol and now valium withdrawal. Now I must wean from zopiclone too. I'm just wondering why my psyche didn't discuss with me, either by a phone call or letter, about why she has suddenly cut 2 med dosages down. Can she do this? I am going through HELL! Anxiety through the roof. I am so ill from lack of food, as I have a bowel condition and waiting to be booked into hosp for investigation and treatment. Can't eat as food gives me terrible tummy pain. So, I'm having a really hard time and I'm scared and have nobody really, to talk to, who understands addiction and anxiety, except the people in these forums, who have given me some lovely replies, advice and comfort.

[shugalug]

About time they worked together! I was under the impression they were, as I gave my psyche a list of meds I was on when first referred to her by my GP. At the end of the consult, the psych told me she faxing the report on what she's doing and prescribing for me. Reason for referral was to sort out my meds and give me a weaning off plan for valium She instead gives me more plus other dangerous addictive junk. I'm the idiot for taking them, I know, so it's not all their fault and I know I tended to blame them until I saw that I too was to blame, for not taking meds as prescribed, and abusing them sometimes mabe once every 4-6 weeks, I'd need  to take extra on a day when I couldn't take any more of what life was throwing at me and needed to calm down. My psych knew all this and okayed it, to take it as needed and that included those certain days when I had up to 6-8 in that day. She's well aware I take the valium like that. I'm never dishonest! I've tried to get sooner appts with both these drs but the psych cancelled on me and put me back to the 22nd Aoril instead of the 10th. Seeing GP on Mon 8th.Will get this all sorted out. meanwhile, I'm suffering hell like , well if you've had anxiety and been through withdrawals you'd know what it's like. I've admitted and NEVER denied I have an addiction to prescribed meds. That's why I posted on her and reached out for help. Some have given me comfort and good advice. Others have judged me telling me I'm lying to myself. If they'd read my other posts properly, they would see I've admitted and do not deny I've got a problem, with which I am dealing with by withdrawing from the poison meds I stupidly allowed my doc and psych to give me, and foolishly took. Nobody forced them down my throat.  Both know of past addiction history to alcohol. All these meds have warnings that they should not be prescribed for persons with a history of addiction. They just did not care. I trusted their judgment, and now I'm a wreck! I came to this site for advice and hoping to get some comfort. Thanks to the oned who gave ensible and helpful advice and did not judge and make up in their own minds, the kind of person they think I must be. If they knew me, they'd know I'm a true blue, fair-dinkum downright honest person.

[shugalug]

You've totally misunderstood me on this one nursegirl! I HAVE been totally honest with myself AND on these forums I posted in. I called both prescribing docs for appts. My psych cancelled, not me. I only missed 1 appt with her on the 4th March. SHE re-scheduled me for the 10th April and SHE cancelled until the 22nd. I HAVE posted that I told and wrote down all the meds I was on when I was first referred tho this psych, so she KNEW my GP was prescribing them. My REASON for the referral to her, was to sort out my meds and WEAN me off valium. She did not do this, but prescribed more. Said she'd send her report of what she's doing and prescribing, to my GP. SO naturally, I gathered they both KNEW. OK, so I should have asked them both at each appt, DO YOU KNOW YOU ARE BOTH PRESCRIBING VALIUM, 2 A DAY EACH, for me? But why would Ieven think of that? Of course I liked the idea of prescribed 4 a day, so as to have plenty there for emergencies. I've admitted that. I admitted I took 1 sometimes, 2 another, none even some days then when pressure had built (you don't know what's going on behind the scenes in my life and that of my family), I'd take up to 6-8 over a day to just stop me from losing it and doing soemthing stupid. I won't say what at this point, but YES,I stuffed up with taking them all wrong anyway. I've admitted that. I've admitted I started using that zopiclone when my valium was cut down suddenly. I've asked for help & advice from members in these forums. I NEVER denied I am having a problem, because I ABUSED the meds sometimes. I would not have asked for help if I hadn't admitted it to myself, let alone anyone else. I couldn't get an appt sooner that the 8th with my GP, so will write down everything, HONESTLY and explain how I'm having terrible anxiety, I'm just so ill, and struggling with the withdrawals from 3 meds. I am coping as best I can with herbal valerian and other calming herbs. I'm ill, as I can't eat because of a bowel condition that's taking ages to get booked into hosp for, to be treated, prolapse for a start, but tummy pains the worst.SO, I AM really doing it tough and need comfort,  not to be told I'm lying to myself. I'm reaching out for help, for God's sake. I don't want any pity just understanding.
Thanks to all you others who posted. I will write a small thank you reply to each of you, as I appreciated the way the thread went. Great to see the rapport between members. And a Special thanks to Larry as it did indeed give me a chuckle, well half-grin at least. Can't smile much at the moment, especially after being so misunderstood by nursegirl. Sorry, nursegirl, but you've read me all wrong. Can't afford Rehabs detoxes, and certainly can't get into hospital, as they don't have enough beds here for things like this anymore. You have to be on your deathbed to get into a hospital here. I soon will be, the way my bowel is and lack of nourishing food and protein since January. I'm a walking skeleton as it is.The only thing holding me up is my prosthetic leg. SO you see, I REALLY haven't got A LEG TO STAND ON!  HA DE HA HA!

[nursegirl6572]

If I see that you have posted on someones question I can relax and know that there is likely nothing more to say  :)  I'm like "umm...yeah...what she said."


LOL, I know.

I'll post like 15 paragraphs, and someone else will come along, post two sentences that say exactly the same thing I said, only all neat and tidy and brief...no eye bleeding like you may have reading one of my replies.

LOL

I'm sure shug will get a well needed chuckle from our banter.  :0)

I have to say, the one reason I DO like going to WalMart is to check out the most recent styles of pajamas, considering most of the customers are wearing theirs.  ;0)

[VICourageous]

That is funny..I just PM her about the same thing...lol And Walmart..Oh yea..I call it Fall-apart but I still get some things there..Ha!!!
Sorry for High Jacking your thread Shugalug.. I do wish you the best..Your post is out of my experience...

[Bubulous]

LOL,
I have to since it shut down all of our shops lol
But I don't like it  :)
Gotta love you nursegirl,
If I see that you have posted on someones question I can relax and know that there is likely nothing more to say  :)  I'm like "umm...yeah...what she said."
Hope you get a laugh out of this Shug,
Larry