CHANCES OF RELAPSE

[passenbyhubby]

I usually go by passenby but I'm away now for my CT trip.I'm on my 5th day. Everything is about like everyone said it would be but less terrifying than what I imagined.I started using vicodins 19mos ago after my son died. He was 25 and it was a shock and a pain I had never felt before. I had vicodins for headache for years never did I abuse them. I used them for a headaches and found they help numb the pain in my heart. my dose climb to 6to8 a day.I thought it was time to stop only to find out I couldn't, I was hooked. My questions. Am I just has likely to have a relapse as anyone that has struggle with this for many years? Will I never be able to take vicodin again for what it was prescribed for? My depression is bad It has always been.Have I delayed my grieving? The last couple of days I have strongly remember why it all began? I need to know about my chance of relapse under these circumstances.

[peaz]

You seem to be in W/D from your lobotomy, Doll.....:-)  You are doing great and I hope your appt goes well today.  Tell me the gory details later.  And give me Mike H's address......LOL

[dancinginthedark]

Just noticed your recent posts about Frey's terrific book.

First off, I'd like to say how very grateful I am that you LOANED me your copy.  You wrote here that I'd rec'd it FREE, which comes across as you bought me a copy  well, yes, I expect that was true but here, several x, you offered to send it to me as you were done with it.  Here, as well as to you in person, I offered to mail it back to you as I was very grateful for your loaning it to me.  But you *did* offer to send it to me, on this very brd. You did not buy me one & send it. We were all talking about the book club & this book in particular & I said it was not yet available in Cda & I didn't have the funding to buy it on US sites at the moment.  That's when you very kindly offered to send me your copy that you insisted you were quite finished with & didn't want back because you had too much mess to sort through. However, I insisted I would indeed send it back.

Could you please tell me where you asked for confirmation of receipt?  I don't have it in my records & as I recall, there was a most untoward exchange btwn us going on at the time I rec'd it & I felt any contact btwn us was most inappropriate.  And for the record & in lieu of all you said, pertaining not wanting it back & what a heathen wench I was:  Why would you have cared if I had rec'd it?  If you say you asked for confirmation, I'll take your word for it if you can tell me where you asked for this & if I am wrong, I WILL apologize for that on this & any other brd.  In the early part of the brouhaha, when I again assured you I'd be sending it back (with a book I thought you'd like) you wrote back a very rude email saying you'd hate for the postage to stand btwn me & a can of tuna...

C18 - You mention to peazy (I believe) how glad you are she's enjoying it & AGAIN express your dismay over the fact that I didn't tell you I'd rec'd it.  What was the pt. of reiterating this unnecessary info?

Most everyone knows about you anyway so....whatever.  Whatever your needs & requirements, make them public & make it quick because I and many others, will have absolutely nothing more to do with you.

Judy

[suzieneedshelp]

Wut i have heard a thousand times is if I take narcotics not as prescribed..as in.. more than prescribed or not for legitimate severe pain that i have tried to resolve in non narcotic ways, it is considered a relapse no matter wut the rationalizations my sick mind convinces me of.
Hope that helps!
Peace...and congrats on workin your recovery!
Suzie

[rodewc]

Sorry @ Dark (name).. I am slow typist, so I chose a short word as the heading for your name. (10 wpm) I am not looking for thx, simply wanted to know that the book arrived. If my meessage was interpreted differently by you, apologies. Same w/ your name. My intent was to know that the book had arrived and was not waylayed in Siberia. I don't get your diatribe previously, but pls. disregard any further explnations. I am sure it is just that the written word doesn't clearly convey what we wish.

rwc~

[nwbeachin]

Hi.....
   Being three years clean, I have received so many gifts for others...in advice, support, encouragement, literature, etc. When someone gives a "gift", most people accept it accordingly. Once in a GREAT while, you realize the so-called "gift" is actually a means for attention. "Look what I gave you, look what I did, look at how giving I am." No gift graciously given has aftermath. When you give...you let it go.
   Some people really don't know how to "give"...there are strings tied to the gift. A simple...Thank you should be adequate....for most people.
   Nice to see ya at "that other board".
jan

[passenby]

You know when I posted this question I really didn't expect much reply, but at least it would give people a chance to talk to each other about there problems with there addiction and help one and the other to incourage each other.I really didn't intend for a dispute no one learns anything from that so please this is not the place.