Hello,now I know more about you it is easier,as you say your paraniod delusions predate xanax use.(they are not Phobias)
I have had a lot of experience with xanax and once I was sitting in a Doctors surgery in severe withdrawal,because I had Abused my supply and run out and the receptionist asked me if I wanted a glass of water,she was previous to this very rude and suggested the Doctor could not help me and I got bad vibes of her,not like she was`nt getting them of me either(xanax withdrawal)any way she got the water and I became suspicious that it was poisoned.
I have never had this type of thing happen to me before or ever again,it seemed to be a direct result of abrupt withdrawal from high dose xanax.
Now when one looks at the withdrawals symtoms in a Psychiatric Manual,well delusion,paranoia and Psychosis are to be expected from abrupt withdrawal from high doses.
Currently the accepted method of treatment for people with Paranoid delusions is Pschotherapy as it is complex in nature and the Psychiatrist needs to learn much about the patient and the evolution of the problem.
In my case it was a Neurochemical imbalance,supported by a reality state,that was the fact that the Receptionist was being rude and unfriendly and I was in Psychic HELL,so when she suddenly volunteered some water,it paved the way for the Paranoid delusion.
It is a fact that Xanax will make you feel better(as it stops ALL types of FEAR),but if you want a "cure" then you must explore the Pathogenisis of the illness.
The fear of eating may stem from an early repressed childhood memory whereby your mother accidently poisoned you with food and scolded you for not trusting her food after that.Who knows?
Our foods are already poisoned by hundreds of industrial chemicals,that work their way into the food chain.
You still have not stated the dose range you use,when you feel you need it,if it is a single 0.5mg tablet 2-3 days a week and you often miss weeks then you probably would not notice much.
Wthdrawal symtoms generally peek from xanax on day 5.
The 6mg dose I mentioned is only prescibed by Psychiatrists to people with refractive severe Panick Disorder.
Panick attacks always peak in around 20 minutes,so I am sure you can see the uselessness in taking the tablet upon having one.Altough they may last an entire day.
I agree,I just wanted to say that I self medicated using Opioids as drug of choice,now I am over the underlying problem that led to my addiction ,but it took time for my LIBIDO to settle down,and it was not sex that settled it,oh no that would just expand my Ego.What cured my underlying problem was the realization of all of this.
At the moment I am a Registered Drug Addict,meaning if I am in severe Physical Pain and see a doctor they ring the Health Dept and see if I am On the List and if they PRESUME I seek drugs because I am a drug addict,not for relief of pain.
Well they got that wrong last time I asked for Opioids,I WAS IN REAL BAD PAIN,but I could not point the finger at anybody,so I suffered and the suffering made me feel heaps better.
Besides,I have my morals and even when abusing and addicted,will not steel to procure drugs when money and supply runs out.
But I tell you this if I was in severe CHRONIC pain do you think for a moment Doctors ,DEA agents,or whatever could stop me from getting Opioids,No Frigging way,I can make my own,shift to Amsterdam,armed holdup a Pharmacy,etc,etc-you corner an injured animal(Human) and you watch you back,because in such a situation death is not a fear IT IS A RELIEF,what would I have to lose????????/pain?.
It is probably(maybe-sounds paranoid,I know) a Sub-Branch of the Government in America,blocking transmission to my email address,because they do not like my "Wisdom",I have checked my server/s and the Asian Pacific Network(the Australasian "backbone" of the internet) and the problem resides on your side USA.
China does not allow me much(any-well some,not complaining) freedom of speech either.I cannot help with the email problem as it IS my email address and even 20 mins before typing this.got an email from a friend in Australia and USA,possibly the problem is specific to this site,which means either the CIA NSA or FBI are responsible and are monitoring(blocking only to me,not reading subject matter) emails eminating from people posting to it?.
Maybe now I have said this they will back off,you know China and Australia get on quite well and USA is being non-complient with "global Warming" treaties drawn up in Japan.
I like Americans,its just that your system needs some fine tuning and course encouragement.
One world ,one day one system,Peace.
See my wisdom knows no boudaries and Politically,I think many decissions are "Unwise".
you're right about the "one beer story" I left out the part where I ran him over with my car.
this is neenie. what is your email add? i thought it was ***@****. i just spent the past 1/2 hr writing to you for advice and it was returned it said permission denied. i have a few ??? for you to answer. i rely heavily on your wisdom
I agree with you. you said that you were not sure if a pain patient is an addict or not...probably in most cases I think the answer may be no....case: my sister has severe back problems, stenosis nerve damage etc. she will be in a wheelchair probably in the next 5 years and she is only 37..ok let me cut to the chase here...she has been on narcotics for several years and if she does not have any she does experience withdrawals but...she does not display drug seeking behavior per say, that obsession is not there, she goes on with life of course in alot of pain..she does not increase her dose or take more than she is prescribed...now, I am an addict, i was constantly seeking drugs, obsession was my name...could not leave the house without a drug....am I making any sense? so she is dependant on the drug but not an addict....I know many people like this but myself that's a whole different story you know the saying one is too many and 100 is not enough....take care cindi