well now i can say i am over 2 weeks clean.lol. im still feeling great about it all, i think my wedding has a lot to do with it, i have been so busy getting things ready thats its not on my mind, and the next 3 weeks are only gonna get crazy with stuff to do so> but imsooooooooooo happy im doing all this while being clean, im not in a fog and i get to enjoy it all to the fullest, i know some of it can be stressful, but for some reason it aint to me, i guess cause of what im going through and im just treasuring it right now. its just nice that for the first time in almost 3 years my everyday life aint based around weather i have enough p ills till the next day, or when can i take my next dose, there where on my mind 24 hour a day, 7 days a week, not a minute went by that i wasnt think about them in some sort of way, and i knew it was bad when i would panic about trying to get them when i had 20 or 30 pills in my hand, thats really bad and scary, but now the only thing thats on my mind is what order i want my girls in, and how cute my kids are gonna look, things lie that. it feels so good its like the devil let my soul go. but now its time to work towards my 4th goal of saying i have been clean for a month(im GONNA make it too).
Luv
<3 chrissy