I'm not sure if we crossed paths in the past, but I've been around a bit. My area isn't with opiates or amphetamines. It's more on the alcohol/benzo/barbiturate side of things. Still, I've felt so hopeless at times, sometimes to the point of not wanting to continue onward. Those times are pretty vivid in my memory, and I won't be at all surprised if I have them again. But I also have times between, where things somehow are definitely better. I don't know if that's the same for you or not. But I don't think taking your own life is the answer. I hope someone comes along who can speak with more experience on the addictions you've struggled with, but this forum isn't as active as it used to be. Are you working any programs? Do you have any support systems around you right now? I'm especially concerned about your safety right now. I've used 1-800-273-8255 (National Suicide Hotline) to talk about suicidal ideation during relapse. They've been helpful to me. I have also ended up in the hospital for suicidal ideation, and that was helpful. Please reach out for help on the suicidal ideation part. As far as your addiction goes, don't give up hope. There's definitely hope.
Keep us updated,
I agree with mombojombo - relapsing really can be painful to the spirit. But I also agree that as far as the relapse goes, there's lots of hope for help and there are still people around in this forum who will try to be supportive, myself included.
Oh my gosh, I'm super sorry to read you are struggling so. Yes, agree that you should call a suicide hotline. I know there are numbers to call, emergency help you can get. Even the ER is a good place to go if you are suicidal.
I am not an old member. But I understand your pain and struggle. Relapsing is painful to our spirit. But you WILL get through this. Please let us know how we can help.
Please come back onthefence and let us help you. I hate to see you like this. We can help you~
I am sorry I didn't see this earlier, I'm in Hurricane Ida disaster zone and literally just got power yesterday!
Hey onthefence..........sounds like things aren't going very well at this point. Did something happen in your life that affected your decision to pick back up? Tell us what you've got going on.......and try to keep in your mind......meth will exxagerate EVERYTHING in your mind!! It makes mountains out of mole hills so try to put that in your head until you can get to some help. Are you still around?
Im atthwpount of suicide likemyson pls,helpme sarah or any old timers , i wish icould talk to james,or lisa; lwtokas
I’m sorry you are feeling so bad T. I’ve been up and down myself lately. We care about you. Please hang in there.
I agree. Come back...let us know how you're doing. Dunno if I can help but happy to listen and show I care. It looks like lots of others are too.
Im still alive, but stuck in cycle of up 5-6 days sleep 3 , cant function without meth, and now caught 2 new felonies, ... its coming to end
Maybe those crimes are the way God wants to deal with you, you will fall, but the quicker you will get up. keep pushing Asia forward no matter how bad you see the road, but when it looks darkest, it is because it is dawn. comment again! Cheers