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[surgsick]

I am pissed off and over it. I have been doing a taper only to be critizized then post a new question about something diff and nothing..... Very lonely and confused as to why I am not getting all or any post of positivity? I think this site is only out to help certain people. I pray those that need help and advise get it. I also pray for me.....Nite

[Iwillnotgiveup]

Hi Surg,   I am on day 4 and I know what your going thru.  Hang in there with me.  I am pulling my hair out but I know it will grow back.   These people are amazing and I love that they are here for you and me  and others like us.  And one day you and I will also give advice and remember when.   I'm screaming too.  And I know that I am heard.  We will get better together.

[JephWyte]

I should correct one thing. I said we can't dictate the outcome of our lives but I meant we can't do that ALONE. Being humble allows us to accept the help me need to make a change in our lives. I sincerely wish you the best and don't get discouraged or resentful, it shall pass. Much love

[JephWyte]

Surg, one of the biggest qualities we need to obtain in order to recover is humility/being humble. I took a kick to me ego and now I can look back and see where I was wrong, I can take a joke and laugh at myself, these things help us lose the misconception that we are powerful enough to dictate the outcome of our lives. Nobody here is perfect or has it right and that includes you, that also includes me. Good advice doesn't always feel good to hear but it can still be what we need to hear.

[dominosarah]

The mental part is no fun.  Our emotions are all over the place.  One minute we are the tasmanian devil, the next we are crying.  This is very common and will even out.  Just know that everyone here wants you to succeed, and you will~

[selfinduced]

Hey, Just want to wish you luck with your therapy. That in itself will lift your spirits. Most of us got into this merrygo round just like you did, then one day woke up and the pills had turned on us. Felt like the world was pulled out from under me. I so wanted someone else to do my detox for me THEN I swore I was going to stay clean. I realized thou that the detox (weaning) process was all necessary for me to grow in my sobriety. YOU'LL do this and be better for the wear. So sorry your still dealing with health issues. Prayers and support on it's way. Keep posting ok?

[surgsick]

That made me smile since I had just wrote a short book and didnt see your post before I wrote it LOL Ty Yeah the mental blows...short and sweet! :/

[surgsick]

Thank you all very much :) I guess it was more about the negativity from my very first post ( thats the way i took it) that quite frankly PISSED ME OFF! As we all understand this is an emotional ride from heellllll so I was just taken back when I posted my first question and got that stuff that i wont keep replaying. ANYWAY!! THANK YOU ALL FOR THE ENCOURAGEMENT because THAT is what I need ATM. Today is another drop in mg for me and yes it might be dragging it out and all BUT I cant do ct from high doses for I have tried several times. Most of my problems are the mental. VERY Manic and I am on an antidepressant and have been since my son passed. I had an up in mg for it 2mths ago too. I am sooo lost I guess. Not really sure which way is up. THANK GOD I DONT HAVE TO GO TO A JOB and while quiting  this. I started the Thomas stuff except the benzo stuff and other than very mild nausea, mild insomnia and leg aches the physical is annoying but no biggy. Thanks everyone for your help. If anyone has any advise on clearing the mental a little that would be AMAZING!! please note I just had titanium rods put in my back so I cant bend or twist or lift or just go for a walk because nobody is here to go with me so Its hard to just get up and do anything :( Again thanks everyone. Wish me luck and many prayers as I start my physio today and I PRAY it isnt gonna be so bad that the taper dont work :( I WILL NOT TAKE MORE THAN MY TAPER but It is a taper so it dont work for pain just keeps wd to a min. Love to all and prayers for you all as well

[notordinary]

Please don't get discouraged.
All the people here, help each other, some search for post they can relate to.
Because that is what they need at that time to help them also.
Other's here help everyone.
I'm on day 17 clean from almost a decade of opiate use, because of all the wonderful people here.
I haven't posted anything for the last week and half. Just because i know there are other's here that need more help than I. I did not want to take away from the people that needed more help.
You will not find more help than HERE!
You will not find more loving, helpful people than HERE!
Keep posting you will be so glad you did.
Keep trucking on.  :-).

[maria920]

When you were told to tell you dealer its just a general thing someone would say. What it was meant as was make sure you tell everyone u get  it from no more. Most of us started out having legit pain but once the pills got a hold of us it was over from there. Stay strong and don't take to heart if u don't get a ton of responses . The emotional part is the worst but if u tell urself this he!! Inside my head will end and don't listen to the dirty lies ur addiction tells you.

[YesLife4Me]

Well God woke me up at 5 am today to let you know we care.  Night time is slow and some hours and days are slow.  I have had some posts with hardly any responses, so I understand...but don't give up!   Post on your own post if you need to.  

[maria920]

Surg, don't give up. I have looked thru ur posts and u seemed to get good responses. Sometimes are slower than others thts all. Please don't take to heart tht u didn't get 100 responses . Keep in mind its also Christmas time and ppl are not on as often. Stick with it!!

[surgsick]

Karma, Thats what this post is. I had seen u on another posts and u stuck out first because of your pic :) then because of your advise. I almost reached out to u lastnite after I came across some posts from you to another women but didnt. Then I cryed myself to sleep ready to give up. Then I wake up and viola of all the people in this med help site and u were the first post. THAT IS GOD MY DEAR! Thank you is all I can say.

[surgsick]

Thank you all :) The fact that you guys said something and at least are trying to do something other than critisize my "plan" HELPS MORE THAN EVER! I went to this community to see if there was anyone on here to help lol I had posted a question about tapering and said that the physical wd is NOT my concern because I will cut off my own arm before I let that make me not stop its the EMOTIONAL! I was wondering if my taper was ok or what. Was told something about me jumping off a cliff and that i need to call all my drs, pharms, and "dealers" and tell them no more narcotics i am an addict. Um I dont have a dealer. Um WHY THE HELL WOULD I DO THAT? I have takin these because of all kinds of med problems not to get my jollys! Anyway I wont rehash. I wish I could delete that post all together because I dont even like to see the question because it hurts my feelings and makes me want to GO OFF and I am really a sweet person. lol The emotional can kiss my arse for kicking my arse if you know what I mean LOL Anyway THANK YOU ALL FOR ANSWERING ME AND I WILL PRAY FOR EACH OF YOU TOO!!!! This blows no matter who u are, why u took, and how long u took or how much or what!!!  Peace Love and chicken wings  :)

[inwithdrawal]

I dont know about the methadone but im on a big norco habit C/T withdrawal as i speak im on hour 29 and cant sleep with me and norco's I CAN NOT tapper i have to C/T if i tapper it is far worse when i lower my dose it is a feew days to stable then im fine then a few more days to stable when i taper again i just like to go 3-4 straight days then goin 2 days of wothdrawal over a period of a few weeks and still have 3-4 days of syptoms when i C/T from a lower dose thats just me though. dont know youre actual question besides no one replying on youre posts so im just showing my support to you because i need it right now from people also and in my mind what goes around comes around so i help this helps you in some way shape and or form

[Conjen]

I'm on day 3 of a taper plan and its horrible but doable how r u doing on yours?

[Brightfutureahead]

Hi there :) Like Sarah said, sometimes it's slow on here...depending on time of day and what community you're in. Sometimes posts just get overlooked- we try not to let that happen but they do. I've been posting on here for a while and sometimes I don't get the number or type of responses that I was hoping for, but I know it was not on purpose.

Anyway, try another post in this side and see what happens :)

[dominosarah]

I dont know where you were criticized,  Your thread about methadone is on the social side, i just found it.  That is quiet at night over on that side.  Your other thread was very positive and people were posting on it.  I know your emotions are all over the place right now.  You asked about methadone.....That comes with a whole set of problems.  You are better off tapering down as you are doing than going that route,  Now come back and talk to us please