Day 4 begins today... Need SUPPORT Desperately!!!!

[M_DuBb22]

I'm going to try to make this short. I just turned 20 years old and I'm an opiate addict. Oxy's, hydro's, perks, methadones, whatever. I've never done heroin and vow never to try it, but I've tried just about everything else but love the opiate high. I've tried cocaine (not crack, never), alcohol, valium, xanex, other benzos, almost every opiate, marijuana, mushrooms (not LSD), research chemicals, and plenty of others.

I was pretty much a normal teenager until I really got into opiates after I graduated highschool in the summer of 2009, besides the fact that I smoked weed daily since the age of 16 and drank occasionaly, I was friends with everybody in high school and had a normal great life. My senior year of HS was the best year of my life, than after I graduated in 2009 I got addicted to opiates and **** went down hill.

I got arrested over a year ago (St. Patrick's Day 2009) for selling weed to high school/college kids to support my opiate habit and vowed to kick the opiates and did and felt fine after like 4 days. Marijuana really helped but ended up quitting that too weeks later after I got sentenced to drug court and got sent to jail for a month for failing my first drug test for pot. I was completely clean of everything for about 6 months until I got off drug court this past fall/winter. You can see a thread about the last time I kicked opiates here, I was fine and felt confident and great physically/mentally after about 4 days and I was doing up to 80mg a day of hydros/oxys
..... http://www.medhelp.org/posts/Addiction-Substance-Abuse/First-Post-Hydrocodone-Oxy-Withdrawl-Help-/show/723435?personal_page_id=1448558#post_3821944




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But ANYWAYS, I got hooked again and spent about $7 thousand dollars from student grants from college on OXYS and other opiates. At my worst, I was doing up to 120mg of OXY on top of like 50mg of hydrocodone a day this past winter. I've been having a lot of really bad things going on in my life and I've been dealing with pretty bad depression since I started using again after being clean for so long.
..... In the past couple months I managed to ween myself down to a MAXIMUM of about 60mg a day of hydro, 40mg a day of OXY, or 2mg of SUBOXONE.

I've been doing 2mg or less of suboxone for about the past 2 weeks since my friends OXY script ran out, and Saturday was my LAST DAY without any SUB, and that day I did about .5mg of an orange sub/naloxone. I count Saturday as Day 1 because it was such a low ammount and the withdrawals began slowly that day.
......................... The past couple days have been HELL with the w/d's. I've only gotten about 6 hours of sleep in the past 3 days and the common opiate w/d symptoms have been pure HELL since Saturday night. It's now Monday night/Tuesday morning, or the beginning of Day 4, and I expected I'd start to feel better physically/mentally by now but no such luck. I could REALLY use some support. The w/d's are so bad that I've come real close to getting a peice of a sub or something to help. I'm surpised its so bad because I weened down so much. I'm going to try to sleep now :(

[Dump_Subs]

I'm on day 5.  Just want wd's to end.

[M_DuBb22]

thanks guys, the days are getting better. i still feel really cold and get sweats and creepy crawly most of the day but its getting better. still a bit restless but its better, but last night trying to sleep was hell. i still feel "not right" since I'm used to being seduced by opiates most of the day. mentally, im starting to feel better. staying busy and hanging out with close friends REALLY helps. smoking pot really helps too but i know there would be varying opinions on that.

thanks a lot everybody, hopefully this will be a good summer I can enjoy like I should as a 20 year old!! not wasting my time getting money and searching for pills all day and living stuck on the opiate train. now i can start having fun!! how i like to look at it

[HenryS354]

You are doing great, each day will continue to get a little better, but there may be days where PAWS bites back.  Just dont let that discourgae you.

I am in day 23 off of suboxone, most days are good, but I still have time to time bouts of that damn RLS, and Im still sneezing in groups of 4 several times a day. LOL  

But there are more good days than bad, and I just remember how I was feeling on days 5-8, and those memories are all it takes for me to be a bit more optimistic.  

Keep your positive outlook.  That and humour I have found helps immensely!  I mean really, is there anything funnier than explosive diarhhea for days on end?  :-P  

HS

[pdx505]

the first like 5 days i was withdrawing i was sneezing constantly too. i'd sneeze like 7 or 8 times in a row. it was terribly painful...my body was so exhausted and sore that every time i sneezed i could feel it tense up and it was very uncomfortable. im still sneezing a bit...not as much as i was a few days ago.

[M_DuBb22]

on top of that i think i caught a cold or something from my nephew. all of a sudden i've been really congested, sneezing, cold shivers are back, im always freezing, and of course still anxious and wrestless

[pdx505]

i know what you mean. i felt like i was losing it at certain points. it really does get better though...