How to deal with the mental ?

[slneedshelp]

I'm tapering down but I can't seen to get the pills out of my mind. Why do I got them stuck in my mind . I always have the thoughts of them and taking more. It's like an obsession . I try to keep busy but still there always in the back of my mind.

[slneedshelp]

Feeling a little better today . I looked up ma meetings and will be going to one this week.img still not clean so I don't know how welcome I will be . Im embarrassEd about the whole thing .

[slneedshelp]

Your right that's wyhyy

[fordfanatic]

In my opinion, the mental aspect of addiction IS the hardest part because it lasts the longest. If all you had to go through was a week or so of agonizing pain, more people would be clean right now. We do not just go from being addicts to normal people with the blink of an eye. Stick with it. Plenty of people have gone through this. You need to keep talking to people who are in similar situations and seeing how they are getting through it or have gotten through it. It is a continuous battle, but a sober life is better than a life dependent on pills.

[slneedshelp]

Thanks for the support , I made a plan im going to go CT again on Feb 1St. I just hope I can get through it's this time. Im
Just  so scared

[nvvicaddict]

The mental part is the hardest for me too! But what I've been trying to do is every time I find myself thinking about the pills or having a craving, I try to think of some part of my life that has been screwed up by being on them. May not work for everyone, but it does for me for the time being.  Good luck and keep posting!

[katmandu516]

Hi there.  I'm not tapering either. It's just torture for me. So I'm finishing the few pills I have left, and then I'm jumping off!! Regarding the mental part, I can relate to that and I do believe that if you have a mental illness, going thru wd's definitely exacerbates the illnesses.  A lot of great people swear by aftercare programs here, but I get terrible paranoia, and the last thing I want to do is leave the house and see people for awhile. But that's just me. I have a therapy session tomorrow and I'm going to have to cancel and be very honest to my therapist why. I have a standing Tues. apt. w/her every week.  I probably will have to cancel next week too.  Will be in the thick of it by then. Good luck to you and we can help each other on here if you'd like.

[meegWpaw]

hey you can do this!  don't give up and don't lose hope.  you will have good days and bad days.  on the good days you will remember how amazing and beautiful life can be and what is important to you.  this is an incredibly hard thing to do and sometimes tapering can make it harder because, as others said, you know the pills are there.  I did a taper in early recovery and it worked well but it was very gradual.  you can give up these pills and lead a happy, rewarding life.  i also agree that you need a Tremendous amount of support from anywhere and everywhere you can get it to beat this!!! that's what i needed ... twelve step, outpatient treatment, therapy, and more ... it is possible, but you can't do it alone.  really reach out ... and keep posting here.  we are here for you!  :)

[jifmoc]

P.S- I can't agree more w/ Gnarly. Meetings treat the addict brain and will lift the obsession. You have to be willing to move out of your comfort zone. Even if your comfort zone blows.

[jifmoc]

Honey, listen. This IS the fight of your life. It's not supposed to be easy. It does get easier, but you have to go thru this part.

I know I said this before: did you cut ALL your sources? If you don't have any than you can't have any.

Why do you want to give up pills? There must be lots of reasons. All of us, had to go thru what you are going thru. All of us. You just need to be willing to withstand pain and discomfort for a little while. Can you do that? What is stopping you?

[gnarly_1]

Hi  well your just like many of us your sick and tired of all of it  but cant seam to stop...just know your life does not have to be this way  the addiction is all about compulsion and obsession 2 of the carters of the disease these will not go away on there own you have to treat this just like any other disease but it is treatable I often say this is 1/3 phyical and 2/3 mental and the mental part is usually what make us go back to using the real key here is aftercare  I have tryed the pastor in my church a substance abuse counselor even a shrink and all helped but none treated the addict still living in my head with or without drugs  I was able to stay clean but was constantly tormented the 1 and only thing that worked for me is N/A ...it treats the addict inside you it is a simple progam you go to meeting there you can share what is going on inside you and they will understand unlike the ''normies'' that give you that deer in the headlight stair there is 12 simple steps that will teach you the coping skills to overcome some of these problems in time you will loose the very desire to get high no other progam or doctor can do this for you  I cannot recamend this progam more if it will work for a old dope fiend like me it will work for anyone that is honest with them selfs b/4 you give up give it a try google N/A meetings in your area and get to a meeting
......................................Gnarly....................................

[slneedshelp]

Im confused and scared . I don't think I can ever give up these pills . I try but in not getting anywhere . I checked the rehabs and there is a waiting list PR don't take my insurance. I don't Luke this life I just want to end it. It's not worth it anymore.

[CRSeaside]

For me I needed more psychiatric care.  I hired a psychologist too.
Support groups. Eml support people. Medication.
  A lot of people who self medicate w drugs do so because they have mental problems. My taper was 3 months. Good luck. Congratulations.

[Cricketk92]

How much longer is your taper?? I think if they are there your brain just knows it and will keep obsessing until it gets some! Once they are out of the house and gone it should get easier for you!!

[vicki595]

In order for the tapering to work, without this struggle, you would need to incorporate some kind of after care plan. Meetings, therapy/counseling, support from like minded people.  There's a lot more to recovery than stopping pills.  Seek out a recovery plan.   Good luck!