Update

[meggolee]

I'm officially on day 2 of no pain killers whatsoever. The biggest thing dragging me down is obviously the pain and body aches but the depression is horrible. Will this eventually go away? I'm so out of words because everything literally makes me cry...

[Bkitty]

Oh Gosh! I know exactly what you are feeling. For me the depression in the beginning was almost unbearable. The way that I was taught in NA and aftercare is that opiates screw with all the chemicals in your brain,,essentially the chemicals that your brain normally produced on their own stop because it has the opiate to do that for it. So when you take away the opiate it takes a while for your brain to figure this out and start producing those feel good chemicals that you normally have. The best thing for this is time,,sweetie. Time. Yes it passes painfully slow in the beginning but I promise you this will pass and you will feel better. There are things that you can do to boost your chemicals too,,like exercise and supplements. Honestly,,I was very lazy in my recovery and I just couldnt get myself to exercise BUT the one time I did,,I felt a lot better. So it does help. Its normal to cry at everything. Let yourself feel those emotions. Those are your feelings and thats YOU coming back to reality. It will be a roller coaster ride but I gaurantee the first time you have a good belly laugh after being sober for a few days,,you will see its so worth it,, All this mess you have to get thru. Small steps that you are taking today are going to equal one large step in a month. Hang in there and keep posting and whatever you are feeling tell us,,we have all been there! ((hugs))~Bkitty

[4adifferentlife]

Just to add, I moved around, went out, rode bikes, all the things plus more I hadn't  done at the height of my craziness.. It went much faster, I would not allow myself to stay on the couch, or lay around..day 1-5, I moved!  And I never hosted a pity party, not at all saying you are, but for me if I staid on the couch, I would've been the guest of honor..

[4adifferentlife]

Congratulations on day 2, the depression could be from all that junk leaving or the thought of never having one again... No matter, it will leave, if it's just due to opiate wd's, time will definatley help, start to see clearly again, and realize that there is a life after, drugs.. Demons come and the demons must go,, Pleaae!Please! Don't pick one up again, this time you lived the next time you might not... Stay strong! GOD Bless