Dumbest thing anyone has done to get pills???

[Jessica5683]

Well,
Yesterday, I was stupid enough to drop a slege hammer and a 24 pack of Dr Pepper on my foot for the only reason to get pills. Hopw pathetic am I? Although it worked and now I have my pills and feel like such an ass and a pathetic addict and some what guilty. So, my question is, has any of you done something as stupid as I did yesterday? Please let me know I'm not the only addict freak willing to do anything to get pills? I have to say though, it opened my eyes to how bad my addiction really is. It made me do a lot of thinking about maybe it's time I get some real help like putting my into detox and coming clean about my abuse with pills. I must admitt it scares me because in coming clean they put it in your record and then so much for getting pills in the future. Although maybe that is what I really need because I have easy access to pills through my rhuematiod arthritis doctor. I would have had pills but he went on vacation and was unable to fill my script. So what do I do, I freak out and injure myself to get me by till he gets back from vacation. Anyway, I would love to read what others have done to get pills just so I know I'm NOT crazy and not alone in my stupidity! Thanks Love Jessica Please NO ONE HATE ME for what I did yesterday

[percsnomas]

Welcome back Dr. Michael!!
For the most part, this place has been very upbeat...lots of recovering going on.
Always needy of you expertise though...

[mrmichael67]

It is good that someone is taking over the task.  I started to get real tired of this place.  Someone always had an attitude.  I just figured I would stop by and read a little.

[Chezz]

Thanks Jess. I don't think I could go through this for a year.

It is so hard to go through this. I want to help as much as I can.

Hopefully I will be able to stay. Although, yesterday I felt like skipper/hipppy about movin-on.

I will try.
Chezz

It is hard for me to think that I will be still dealing with this long term. It is hard. I want to help. But I don't want to "remember". I want to close this chapter and move-on. That won't be for awhile I guess. I will stay as long as I can.

[GOD]

Hey guy,

I am SO pleased that you are taking over the "Duty" of welcoming the newbies now. As you may know from reading the board recently, I'm movin' on, and will probably only post very infrequently. You are an asset to this little piece of the internet, and I hope you'll stick around and put in your "tour of duty"-- I've been here posting daily for about a year and it has been so benifecial to my sense of well-being that no dollar amount spent with a shrink could even come close.

The torch has been passed~

Jess

[Chezz]

Glad to hear that it helped. No...I give credit where it is due, and this time it was me. Actually everything I write is just what comes to me. I just write what I feel.
That is why it is so hard sometimes.
I'm happy to hear that it at least got you to POST.
Keep posting/writing it helps,
Chezz

[Jessica5683]

Thanks everyone for your comments. Although that was by far the stupids thing I ever did it probably was the smartest thing I ever did. I say that because I felt things I hadnt felt in a long time like, Jess you are better then this and Jess, Your a lot stronger then you give yourself credit for, and most of all, It made me want to be clean. Now, there are times were I tried to get clean but this feeling in me now was not with me then. Does that make any since to anyone???? I guess it was a complete slap in the face to really how bad off my addiction really is and I needed to see that and feel it. So, again thanks for all the comments and once again I'm going clean but need help and may put me into a rehab or at the very least get my butt to NA this time around. Love to everyone and ((((((((HUGS)))))))))) Jessica