Emotions coming back.

[Decisions]

Is it normal?  Those who have answered some of my posts know I am dealing with a  tough divorce, and an newly graduated son.

For the first time in a while, (years) I started to cry, at the graduation.  Right now, I am not sure what I was crying about.
The reality of having a son 18 years old graduating?
The  reality of getting older?
The motivational speeches of how "we will embark on a new chapter of our lives...".
Not being "medicated" at a public function?


I mean the feelings I seem to be having along with the misery, is a roller coaster.  And I am a guy...  hmmm.  

[didittomyself2]

ahhhh chooo...BLESS ALL OF YOU!!!

[Iflyfish]

I am sneezing like crazy too!

Congratulations on feeling your feelings. We can learn a lot about ourselves by experiencing them. You are coming back to yourself.

Iflyfish

[Decisions]

Great posts, and thanks so much for the support.
My "timing" is not good yet.  I was never shy to cry as a guy...
But I threw that in to be ya know , a man!!

Anyways it is clear there are many of us who are or have dealt with all the symptoms of withdrawal and recovery.  

By the way, I sneeze all the time too.  More these past 2 weeks than in 5 years

[worried878]

remember as well...totally normal for most i think....I have cried on rare occasion...I mean i got teary eyed when my parents repeated their vows at thir 50th wedding anniversary and things like that...but like a real crying jag...just a few in my entire life and i almost forced myself to have those cos i knew it would help...get it out and cry for an hour on my bed.....has been a long time...after i quit i remember going to my moms house and just losing it....she was worried to death for weeks afterwards and would call and stop by...probably thought i was suicidal...i dont like to worry people like that so i did not do it again....it passes...just felt frightening to feel for a bit there

[road2recovery]

yes, during my detox and weeks after.....It drove me crazy..But BIG part of detox..SO it is normal, i took benadrl s/p? and that helped alot..
Congrats on 22 days..
r2r

[didittomyself2]

you mention sneezing...was that after you quit?  im 22 days clean and i fricken sneeze all the time!!!  

[didittomyself2]

I am 22 days clean ...and my emotions are a WRECK!!!  i think they even numbed my heart and didnt make me feel it it was hurting...
its a roller coaster for me...
i just had my oldest graduate from college and i balled...im female but i dont think that matters...

[road2recovery]

Yes very normal...I don't think that addiction cares if u are male/female.....We are so numb while using that things don't bother us so much..It effects every part of us...slows down intestines (constipation) lungs , some of us sex drive, etc.....I always think about how many times i was sneezing and how that was a hugh sign our bodies were waking up....
emotions are all over the place, I cried alot too, and didn't know why...But that is a good thing...We need to feel again...
That will get better too with time..
hang in there u are doing great...
r2r

[lifesaride]

emothional? hell yeah! i had to deal with my daughter graduating college, so i know what you mean, it's just a product of sobiety. were numb so long then BAM ,  reality stes in. so yes its normal, and it doesnt have to be a big thing either. whatever it is just let it out.you'll be fine. Teddy

[Victor322]

I too often feel sadness more than before (and also anger) since I'm not numbed-out like I was. It ultimately feels good to finally feel/release some of that repressed sadness that i've been carrying around while drugging.

I also feel body aches and pains more so now (not just the chronic pain stuff) but aches/messages that the pain meds had been numbing out from my consciousness.

So it's now it's time for me to better listen those messages that the body had been attempting to convey to me over the past few years but were numbed out/away...time to nurture myself back to health and I'm hell-bent on doing it!

Not always fun...but really no choice. "Play now, pay later?"

You betcha!

-Vic

[dominosarah]

I can cry watching a commercial now.  I dont see anything wrong with a guy crying.  After all you are human too.  Society has set those standards of men always having to be tough.  Crying is healing for me.  Going thru a divorce is hard and you go thru a grief period just like a death.  I wish you the best.     sara

[avisg]

You are not numb anymore .I remember the first time after I quit when I felt pain .It really was very overwhelming . You have a lot going on in your life right now .I have a 16 year old that graduates next year so I can totally relate to this. Its already effecting me to know this time next year she will be getting ready to go .Let your self feel again .Go threw the emotions its a very healthy thing.
avis

[sadinmichigan]

I understand what your saying...I think it is normal..And that is such a milestone in your kids life..I cried at my kids graduation too..and everything else it seemed this past few months..I have had alot personally going on too..but I really do think after the physical w/ds..the emotional rollercoaster is worse..I don't know why that is but I know what your talking about..And whats wrong with a guy crying??? nothing..lol..divorce is a hard thing to go through..i have been there too...and again. How are you doing otherwise..how many days has it been..