Feeling anxious today

[mimi1313]

I am 23 days clean from a relatively short addiction to vicodin. I think I've faired pretty well, but my anxiety is sky high today. This would be the day that if I had a pill I would definitely take it. I'm just very on edge.

[lostmarbles]

and mine! i took my meds for everything, i even took them when I was going to get my legs waxed!! and for boredom.. its amazing now when we think of the reasons why we took them.. it was any excuse for me.. sometimes iwas so bored and wanted to sleep the hours away so i popped... crazy..

[mimi1313]

You can clean my house too if that helps!

[nldfw]

You know- I'm only on day #2- and freaking out alot today- but I've realized something.  I didn't take the pills when I was stressed- I took them when I was bored- or when I was going to be doing something I didn't want to do.
Isn't that strange?  So my triggers aren't going to be stress- they'll be boredom. Great!  I'll be the cleanest house in town :)  

[mimi1313]

Yes, it does work. Thanks, sometimes you just need to hear that it will be okay. I'm  glad that I helped you even in a small way and I hope you realize how much you've just helped me. This forum is full of great people and you are definitely an asset to it. I know I still have a long way to go but I'm getting there. I think I just miss being the person I was. My personality used to be described as bubbly and everybody would comment on how much I smiled but I've lost that somewhere and I want it back.

[lostmarbles]

you are doing so fantastically well... and just remember that when I was feeling anxious and a little stressed a few days ago, you wrote to me and gave me lots of support... we will all have our 'off' days but we also have each other... the key to this is to keep posting.. see, it works, yes?? xx

[mimi1313]

Thanks, I am proud I made it this far and I was only using for a few months. I could be way worse off. I think I'm just stressed and that is definitely one of my triggers.

Lostmarbles: That's exactly how I felt! I was scared. Can I do this without "happy pills"? But I used to be very happy without them.

Cathy: I'm a Mimi because my nieces and nephews couldn't say Melissa. That's why I chose that because it reminds me of my wonderful family.

Feohmoon: You sound determined so there is no doubt in my mind you will be clean in no time at all.

Thank you all, I actually do feel a little better. A hot bath sounds good!

Melissa

[lostmarbles]

Isn't it weird how when we feel a certain way we relate it to a time when we would have taken our meds? I was working late last night and I looked at the time and for a nanosecond I thought, 'it's ok, I can just take a pill instead of driving myself mad about not feeling sleepy' and then I shook myself as I remembered I was clean!!! plus i don't have any meds!! how strange is that??? and scary!!!!! so glad I am clean and that I have my wits about me.... have a nice bath melissa and pamper yourself with some nice moisturiser and give yourself a foot massage.... always works for me!!!!

[cathy5841]

HI MIMI, BY THR WAY I AM A MIMI TOO...can you take a short walk and take deep breaths...getting outside always calms me..anything to get your mind on something else...i know easier said than done, but give it a try.  good luck
cathy

[feohmoon]

23 days sure is a long time...I cannot wait until I can have 23 days behind me...
Y'know today has been a rough day - very stressful, but take a few deep breaths...do you meditate?...Once upon a time, I had an addiction to vicodin, it escalated and now I have to face the demon of methadone - so be proud of yourself, I wish my fiance adn I would have stopped sooner!!!!!!
Read over the forum for awhile.....
Good luck, stay strong
Feohmoon