Going Down To 2mgs Of Methadone!!

[Penelope14]

Well tomarows a big day, I decided that Im feeling well enough to drop from 3mgs to 2 mgs, I had some doubts last week, as I did have some days when I felt beaten & weak, but I cant explain what happened but after 8 days of feeling like a walking zombie, I snapped out of it, maybe its my vitamins or maybe my body got adjusted to the lower dose? Whatever happened it feels good to feel normal. Now I cant speak for everyone, but one think I notice about getting off methadone is the rollar coaster ride of good days & bad, & last week I had mo many more bad days then good that I was becoming to feel as if I couldnt do this. I look back at all my accomplishments I,ve made over the past 10 months & think, wow, Im doing something that many people either cant or dont want to do, for fear of withdrawals or relapse, so this really inspires my goals & I really shouldnt tear myself down, instead I should give myself a big pat on the back, as I am one of the few thats gonna win the whole battle, & Im not just refering to detoxing off methadone, Im speaking about what takes place after the physical stuff is over, the aftercare is so important to me, as I realize that methadone may have physically helped me get off oxys, but once the layers of methadone begin to leave your mental status may be what it was the very first day of getting onto methadone,Im still the addict that I was when I first stepped into that methadone clinic broken down & at my lowest, only now I have the want & desire to fix the whole package, we all have different ways of going about doing this, some look to god, or they meditate, I personally am going to NA & am learning so much about this disease that lives within me & understanding that its all gonna be ok & for me this is so much more rewarding then reaching for that pill bottle, also understanding that thiers no quick fix solution calms me down, as we addicts want for quick rapid gratification & this is what gets us in trouble, because recovery takes time.   Thanks For Listening  Penelope

[Penelope14]

Are you serious? If thats the case maybe that could explain why I felt so awful when I had jumped from 8mgs down to 4mgs? I went thru 8 days of feeling awful & living in a fog, now I feel fine, as a matter of fact I wake up in the mornings no longer yearning to dose, I think maybe your right, maybe it is all mental, if thats the case, I got this in the bag!  Penelope

[skoochie]

that is so great to hear I'm still tappering and some of your guys stories are the only thing that keeps me going!!

[Becky102]

You're doing great, girl!  You're going to make it.
You mentioned in another post that you thought the vitamins were helping.  Could you tell me what you're taking?

[johnnykelly]

You are already detoxed,except in your mind.I went off at 3 mgs because of a geographical location change.Penelope this is only a pain-medication although with a longer half-life.So hon stayon 2mgs for 1-week and the oter mill for at the most 1 more week and you are done. congradulations,just dont come-up with some imaginary reason to go back on the meth. penelope if you say need some pain pill in the future use somrthing other tan methadone. Thats great look forward to an active spring and summer john

[worried878]

Good luck...u sound determined and you will win this battle....good for u

[feohmoon]

Awesome post...you are so strong...

[wait2long]

your right, whichever route we take, it takes time, effort, hard work and commitment...your doing so well, not many have been able to do what you have done, as i am sure you know methadone is a beast to kick. but your doing it, and doing it well, you have much to be proud of lady!!  this is a HUGE thing to overcome and you should be giving yourself a HUGE pat on the back.  knowing and understanding how important aftercare is, is a main ingredient to recovering from this addiction.
i have no doubt that you are going to beat this, i hear the commitment in your posts, your doing and beating this beast with time and patience....i hope when you are through this you will post in your journal about how you did this and the time it takes, not to be in a hurry, because that just doesnt work...you could help alot of people who are "stuck" on methadone because of fear...a validated fear that can be overcome.
congrats to you!!!!

[Shotrock]

You go Girl, and if you have long Hair, put it in an Up-do and then work that up-do..... Your winning the battle don't ever give up..