Ok, well I thought we were over this yesterday, especially when PILLHELL wrote, "GWH did nothing wrong" and that he/she understood what I was trying to say................. but I guess not. so let me say this again. WHAT I WAS TRYING TO SAY IS THAT I CAN SEE MYSELF WHERE PILLHELL IS AND I WANT TO KNOCK SOME SENSE TO MYSELF, BUT OF COURSE HIND SIGHT IS 20/20. I NEVER ONCE SAID I'M OUT OF THE WOODS, NOR DO I THINK I AM, SO THANK YOUR FOR THE SOUND ADVICE IN TELLING ME THAT I HAVE NOT ACCOMPLISHED MUCH OF ANYTHING.
I don't know--I think your comment to Pill Hell was a little severe. I know from experience that 1 or 2 months clean are not really all that much. Drugs **** you up big time--it takes a long time to get over them. (I know--when you are clean a whole month it feels like years--and it is a HUGE deal--a major accomplishment). Personally, the lens was still pretty foggy even after 6 months clean. At 3 years clean I realized how ****** up I was when I was a year clean. At 8 years clean, I realized I still had a ways to go, so I stopped trying to be so judmental of others. We're all just struggling and hellbent is right--any one of us can start using again in a minute. We all need to have a lot of respect for the drugs we have taken. Only 15% of the population that goes into IN-Patient treatment stays clean for a whole year, so that means a lot of relapses. We could all end up back where we were, so it is best to remaine humble about where any of us are now.
wow, that made my day to hear you say that, do you mind telling me what post it was? I'm curious to know what I had said that would help you out of addiction...... I greatly appreciate your thanks because it's keeping me from using..........
GWH
i just want to thank you. I have been looking at this board for about 18 months. I am no clean for 7 weeks from a major oxycontin addiction (500-1000mgs) per day. I feel great now being clean and have my life back and during those dark days and hours many people on this board ( i single you out for a post you had a while ago that helped me tremedously) have helped me win the battle to this point. Thank you all
THANKS TO EVERYONE FOR THE ENCOURAGING WORDS.GWH DIDNT DO ANYTHING WRONG.I CAN NOW UNDERSTAND GWH COMENT.I GOT DEFENSIVE.JUST ANOTHER DRAWBACK OF ADDICTION.NOBODY SHOULD BE AFRAID TO SAY WHATS ON THEIR MIND AND IN THEIR HEART.PEACE TO ALL.MAY WE ALL KEEP ON KEEPIN' ON!!
I bet real soon, I will be able to post here clear-headed.
Sice I am taking Ativan and Klonipin, it sure does help with most of tht withdrawal. I have such a hard time focusing and can't eat or drink (only enough to swallow my pills for withdrawal) I don't feel hungry though. Just slept a day and thougt it was still yesterday. Is it working? Maybe. Can't tell I am in such a deep fog and depressiona all I want to sleep. Hopefully these meds I jusst took will kick in soon, so I can go back to bed. It's been since Friday. Am I anticipating another few days, weeks or months?
What are they trying to do by keeping me in a snowed state? Is there a purpose for this?
Appreciate any of your responses.
Koala