I just want to use

[christine2222]

Very depressed right now. Trying not to use but I want to feel better. I used to cut myself when I got like this then I found vics helped with pain. I have some xanex maybe I should take some of them. If I screw up today can I get back on track tomm or just give up on ever stopping?

[kim715]

Oh honey,I'm so sorry your struggling so hard today.Taking a xanax might be a good idea,try that.Have you looked up the thomas' recipe? Many here have used it during detox and found it to be of great help.Don't get ahead of yourself.Don't worry about tomorrow or even an hour from now,just deal with right now and take it minute by minute.You can do this and we're here to help.Keep talking,we're listening.

[joann1975]

Don't go back to the pills....it's not worth it in the long run...you will start feeling better. it's hard right now....just keep talking!

[joann1975]

I am not saying anything right today...I have to go lay down... LOL

Yes, the xanax will help... don't go back to the vics...(think people can read my mind today..lol)

[dominosarah]

Keep talking to us.  We are here for you.  

[christine2222]

What is depressing me is this process. I never feel good anymore & it just feels so hopeless. It seems like it goes on & on & never gets better. I started using to feel happy now I am supposed to stop & be depressed for months. This is what I started using to get away from.

[bandnmom]

dont ever give up on yourself. its a tough battle but one that is doable. just stay strong and try to be positive. we are here for ya!

[dominosarah]

I know it feels that way right now but one of these days you will wake up and you will feel so much better.  It takes awhile to rid the poison out of our bodies.  Life is really so much better now.  I am no longer a prisoner to the pills.  Please just hang in there and keep posting.  We know how you feel and will help you thru this.          sara

[broknbck]

sorry you are feeling so down. i know another girl who would do the cutting thing too. it is a lot more common than people think.

well, you have realized that the pills are just not going to work for that either. a doctor(as much as i don't like them) is what you need. there are either deep issues that have to be dealt with or some type of chemical imbalance and maybe an anti depressant wouldn't be a bad idea.

i took cymbalta for about 5 months. it is not hard to get off of when you are ready too and no aftereffects.

[rue10]

I agree with Sunny.  

They (the pills) make you think you're feeling good, when in actuality they just cover everything up.  After awhile they make you feel terrible, physically and mentally and then you just take them to feel normal (not sick) and you hate yourself for not being able to stop....  Then you take more.  It just goes on and on.  At least this way you know there's an end to these bad feelings.  You may not have it in your sights just now, but know that it's there.  Don't blow the work you've done just before it gets better.

Please try to hang on.  There will be brighter and brighter days ahead.

[christine2222]

I just need a break from this misery. Just need to feel happy again. Have not felt happy since I tried to stop & this sound like it gets harder if it even gets better. Don't have a Dr too expensive.Was'nt depressed until I tried to stop.

[broknbck]

yes, when you quit you do experience depression. that is why my doctor gave me the cymbalta (anti depressant). i also did not have insurance and they do cost quite a lot. but it seems that the hardest thing is to find a solution no matter what the cost. i have gone pretty far in dept to get off those stupid pills but it worked.

my friend who was cutting herself found out that she does have some other things wrong and that is why she felt better if she cut her self. Normally that should never make a person feel better.

there must be a credit card out there somewhere that you can get??

[kim715]

I know the rest of us telling you it gets easier doesn't bring as much comfort to you as we would like it to but take this into consideration.You said you have done alot of reading here and thats great.So then you know that there are alot of people here with some real clean time living pretty 'normal' lives.We're all just normal people honey.We're not super human.We all felt the exact same way you do right now at one time.I promise you it gets better because I'm a mom and a grandmother and a wife and I couldn't have made it four months now if I felt the same way I did those first 2 weeks.It honestly does get better.

[merrymaria]

HI IM ON DAY 5 AND FEEL LIKE XXXX  BUT ITS BETTER THAN DAYS 1,2,3,  YOU HAVE TO GIVE YOURSELF TIME.  IM VERY VERY DEPRESSED TOO.  I HAVE MESSED MYSELF UP GOOD BUT IM GOING TO CHANGE THAT.  I ALREADY HAVE.  I COULD NEVER GO 4 HOURS  NOW HERE I AM AT DAY 5.  THIS FORUM IS GREAT. WE ARE ALL IN THE SAME BOAT.  TRY TO STOP THE PILLS FOR 2 WEEKS AND SEE HOW YOU FEEL AND LEAVE THEM BEHIND YOU.  THEY ARE AWFUL PILLS AND I USED TO CALL THEM YUM YUMS.  HOW STUPID OF ME  ANYWAY PLEASE WRITE BACK AND TAKE CARE HONEY   LOVE, MARIA

[Jammer3960]

I am taking a 2mg tab cut in half; 1/2 every 12 hours. I feel like I have the flu. Everything hurts; everything... Does this sound like a normal taper ? I was on 2 mg 3x's per day about 2 months ago.

[missmomma0062]

Jammer this is an old thread, you will get more answers and support if you go to the top and click the post a question! Just copy and paste! They will want more information. what are you taking? how much? how long have you used!