Hello mental...

[3Xs_U_R_Out]

Well I'm nearing the end of day 5. Wow! I think that's right.
I'm still hanging on. Most physical stuff is nearing an end.
Still have some digestive stuff and still taking night sleep aids. But what's really just starting to kick in is the mental cravings :(
Even though for the most part I'm so proud of myself and so happy to have done this and enjoying my family and life more than ever. And seeing benefits in my marriage. I can't stop my brain from craving those stupid pills.
How can you want something so wonderful and happy and good and something so very bad at the same time?

[CRSeaside]

Hi. The hospital is your battlefield. Go into this war with a plan of attack. Luck will not cut it. Know in advance where the enemy hides & always go prepared.  Every army needs time to rest & regroup before each & every battle to avoid fatigue. Be prepared. We are the rest of the army, here for support & assistance.  Think of your Therapist as a new General that will be assigned to the battlefield. Every one expects victory.    Pamela

[3Xs_U_R_Out]

So I'm going back to work today. Although I felt decent yesterday, I called in anyway just to be safe. I will work a 12 hour shift today and tomorrow at the hospital. Although I'm not physically handling meds, I know they're there and I handle other patients scripts (which has never ever been an issue btw...ever) my point is that seeing just the word norco...I'm sure will be a trigger. I have no way to get them unless I want to lose my job (and that is never going to happen), but still I just needed to put it out there. I'm sure ill be ok this weekend.
Today is day 6.  
So wish me luck today ....
Here goes....

[On2better]

I think therapy would be great and maybe some meetings. The mental cravings stick around for awhile and it's nice to have people to talk to and mull it over with. GREAT job on day 5!! Turning the corner now...

[3Xs_U_R_Out]

I am planning to see a therapist but just haven't put the effort into doing it yet. This first week I haven't been outside the house much.

[motye51]

I was really glad to see your post. It's actually giving me some encouragement to know there is a light at the end of this tunnel. I am only on day 3 but pushing forward!

[CRSeaside]

What are your aftercare arrangements. It's good to have a first 100 day plan

[3Xs_U_R_Out]

Thank you very much friend. I do look at my 16 month old son and that helps tremendously. The thoughts are still there though. And getting worse...

[mybabytwins]

well first off...nice work, simply nice work. I am plowing through day 6. I have a disease, it's called a brain addiction. So I have simply come to the conclusion that even though it's not really ME that want's something so bad that I know isn't good for the real ME, I just chalk it up to the disease that effects why I think this way. We together must retrain how we think (treat this disease). For me, its looking into my 11 month old twins eyes. The more I do this the more training I am giving my brain to offset the old (diseased) way of thinking. Find someone you really love, look in their eyes, don't say a word....feel man feel. If you are into some good old fashion scripture...try tackling John 10:10. The thief is the devil, all it wants to do is seek, kill and destroy you as a human being. Keep on trucking my friend!