Evacrednow,
Thanks so much for telling it to me straight, it was almost worse wwondering ust how bad it could be.
I am thinking now that I will give the Ambien a miss - maybe take some Valium to sleep? I remember when I originally gave up they gave me 2 valium every 4 hours, but I would be loathe to do that by myself.
Its really difficult cause I am working in a small country near Oz where narcotics (unprescribed) have the death penalty - I am sure 10 x 15 mg wouldnt get me there, but if I see a Dr, I am really just jumping into the unkown. It is very corrupt and the very least they could do is tell immigration, so thats pretty scary. Maybe i COULD try finding a Western counsellor then I wouldnt feel so alone. There is an NA chapter here, but I dont think that you can attend until clean. I might call anyway.
If you have time could you tell me your story, just hearing that someone has taken the high doses like me and gotten through it is so reassurring - thanks again.
Oh and another scary thing is that the MST can come in again anytime (ust waiting on the distributor, so I am scared about that too.
Thanks for giving hope to a lonely and scared person!
Cheers,
Kim
If at all possible, you really should see a doctor.
But, if you're not going to, then you seem to have an armory of meds available to mitigate withdrawal symptoms--but you are going to have WDs regardless, there's no way around that. I know you know that, but, maybe try (and I'm not a doctor, so this is not medical advice!) weaning down with the morphine--taking three today, three the next day, two, and two, and then start medicating with the valium and codeine once you're off the morphine. But, you'll want to get off codeine relatively quickly once the aches subside, bc I'd imagine the codeine will just make you crave the morphine.
And a word about Ambien--be careful about taking that while withdrawing. When in withdrawal, your brain chemistry is all messed up and you've been taking high doses of depressants. I tried taking Ambien when I was in withdrawal, and it made have obsessive suicidal thoughts for two days--a known side affect of Ambien for people who are depressed. I just hadn't realized how depressed the opiates and withdrawals had made me.
Alternatively to weening, If you go cold turkey, I'm betting you will get pretty ill from the dose you've been on--so, just keep weening--it won't be fun, but you can do it. I weened off high doses of vicodin and subutex this last summer, and though it was terrible, and it was, it's so much better not taking that stuff everyday.
Good luck.
PS; No offence to the people like me who are addicts, I dunno just up in the air, scared, messed up. We all are going through pain and it is amazing to see how open and honest everyone here is...