Help Stopping Suboxone

[cleangimnow]

All,

Here I am again...been on suboxone for two years now at 6-8 mg a day. I do drink and take my script of Klonopin.  The klon is daily and drinking once or twice a week. I need help. I don't know what to do. Most people see me as this highly functional responsible person.  Married, kid, nice home, fancy job title, etc.  

I feel like its all a lie.  I'm just a loser inside who can't get it together. Suboxone is a powerful opiate that I am and I make a lot of important decisions.  Granted, I'm happy that I'm not chasing pills and having mood swings. However, I need help getting clean. My wife doesn't know about the sub because she would be so disappointed. I got back on it when I did bc I was chasing pills again at the time.

Please help!!!

[Jinx_777]

while you are at the therapist, talk about maybe something for depression.  wellbutrin is supposed to help with depression and lowers cravings, etc.

you are NOT a loser.  addiction does NOT discriminate.  it happens to the best of us.  the fact you recognize it and want to do something about it  is very admirable.  

if your sub doctor will not help you with a taper try reading some old posts and you will find taper info.   are you getting the sub's from a doctor???  either way you really need a doctor who wants to help you get off of them.

i have to agree with the 'stop drinking' comments.  your brain is going to want to cross addict and while it is screaming for opiates drinking will lower your resolve.  best to avoid it.

[cleangimnow]

I get my subs from a dr. I am greatful for that. Sub allows me to live a relatively normal live. I agree. I should stop the alcohol. I started drinking tonight after a crappy day. Man life can suck. My staffs are driving me nuts. Nonstop all day.

My therapist had to cancel today. She was sick. Man that *****. I just got up the nerve. What is wrong with me?  Why am I drinking tonight?

[cleangimnow]

I tried Wellbutrin last time I kicked sub. It made me feel crazy. Should I quit my job and go to rehab?  I don't want to. I'm finally successful in my career. I'm earning 6 figures and keeping up with the jones.

[cleangimnow]

Btw-  I exercise 6 days a week. Lift 4, play raquetball 1, and walk 4 miles 1 day. Also coach soccer.

[Dane74]

addiction does not discriminate,  it looks like CEO's, doctors, cops, and homeless, its a disease.  It sounds like you are a "high functioning addict" as was i when i was in active addiction.  It catches up to us and before you  ya know it,  you no longer have control over it!  I was super women on pills, worked out and was in great shape, kicked butt at all i did, or so i thought.  I wouldn't advise you to quite your job, but if you have the opportunity to go to rehab i would say heck YES, and go.  Rehab is not always the answer but it sure helps, it's up to you to make the choice to turn your life around.  You have so much to offer, so i would start thinking of all your options regarding aftercare.  Listen to your gut and for sure stop the booze.  Good luck to you

[cleangimnow]

I'm drunk now and ashamed of what I am. My daughter needs me to help with homework. I answer emails and act like I'm a functional CEO. I'm a loser deep down. Jobs and socioeconomic status don't matter. I need help. How do I do this?

I feel like quitting my job to go to rehab would let everyone down including my family.