Here I go again

[NowOrNever43]

I debated on whether or not I wanted to post as I am ashamed for falling back into this vicious cycle but I need the support of all of you. I took my last pills about 2 hours ago and tomorrow will be day 1. I pray for the strength to get through this and make to the other side. I want the old me back, I want to be happy again. I hope I can lean on all of you great people for the next few days as I will need your support. Thanks in advance.

[gnarly_1]

HI    well its not uncomon to slip back ...your an addict and  you need to treat the dease....N/Ahas a great program with the 12 steps  it will help get you out of your own head  you  really aught to check this out  those who go to meeting usually stay cleen  its good you came back hear looking for support we all want to see you get clean I would liketo see you stay clean getting ther is only 1/2 the battle............Gnarly

[dusk1010]

im very happy to be here.everyone is so supportive and I hope to feel better.Im keeping myself busy however the bouts of cravings creep up and the boredom i.e if I shud call it.time feels tedious but then the support of all my frens here give me courage.I dont get much time for chatting coz I have a baby boy and I need to be on my toes.Im trying to make the best of his childhood by talking and listening to him.But I must say in this process I feel like I could do with a dose or two and Id be more happy to play with him.My lil one doesnt understand what his mommys goin thru and expects me to me full of energy.well keepin the positive attitude I m trying to refrain frm the devil.I am excited to know how life feels without the high...and actually enjoy lifes lil happiness.crossing my fingers and praying with all here for a better u and us.cheers!!!

[clean_in_ks]

Glad to see you back......and to hear you say tomorrow will be day 1.
You probably know all the safeguards since this isn't your first rodeo, but still hope you will be able to get them in place.

You said you have stocked up on all your detox supplies......so have you also CUT OFF all you pain pill supplies?  And of course, the next safeguard is sharing with someone that can hold you accountable.....and then support/aftercare.  I'm always interested to hear when someone returns what they see as being the "weak link" that led to the relapse as knowing that helps all of us, too.  Rootin for you....and hope you'll keep posting and sharing.....we're here to support you always~    

[EvolverU]

Welcome & Congrats on your Big decision! Glad to hear you've planned ahead and gotten yourself some supplies. As other posters have mentioned, everyone here has fallen over and over again. It's part of the learning curve and the insidious nature of our peculiar disease. Try to leave the feelings of shame and fear behind you. They keep us shackled and make the w/d's so much worse. It sounds like you're already gathering strength from the site. This place will be your lifeline in the next several weeks. Use it as much as you need. We're your allies in all this. Strength, love & patience to you!

[NowOrNever43]

Thank you all so much! I really appreciate it! I have all of the supplies. I just need to be strong and positive! Congrats on 5 days clean Could_Use_Some_Advice! How are you feeling? And TiredinTempe I will be right behind you! Thanks again everyone! :)

[Could_use_some_advice]

Opioids/opiates are like a roller coaster...all ups and downs! You made the right choice to get off the ride! You can do it! I'm going through it too...day 5!

[VICourageous]

We are Cheering for YOU!!! You know what to expect..So Go-Go--You can do it...Yea!!!!!! Do you have all the supplies??Also after the bath I used to get under that Heating Blanket..It felt so good..I came c/t from the dones and 2 other meds..So I will be with you.I know how tough it can be....
vickie

[FourJays]

Don't be ashamed - I know I did it several times myself; and I don't think we are alone!  And now you are back in the right place.  That's what matters.  You know you can do this. . . .keep posting :))

[TiredinTempe]

I am on day 1 from Percs, just trying to be positive. That has helped this time going ct. You can do this too. Get prepared with supplies and post. Take care!

[NowOrNever43]

Thank you so much, I will continue to post with my progress. I am coming off of about 120 mg of oxycodone, I have gone thru withdrawals quite a few times but for some reason I always freak myself out. I just want to feel normal again whatever that feels like.

[VICourageous]

Welcome..You can lean on us ..Great Job for wanting your Life Back...Just let us know what is up...OK
vickie