Also I realize this is years old. I just responded for everyone because the advice is the same.
It is very good that you wanna be a better person and get out of the hell you have created for yourself. I want the same thing, but it isn't going to be easy for either of us. You have been abusing your subs, like I do, which is very bad. The best way to get clean is to start with the right mentality. You have to want to do it not just for those around you, but for YOU or you may end up slipping. There will be many moments of weakness during the quitting process, you just have to be strong mentally to be strong physically. Next you need to immediately start cutting your dosage down. Every week, or whenever is best for you cut a little more off. The less you take the easier the withdrawal will be because your body will have already started adjusting itself to function without the medicine. When you get to the smaller doses start doing it every other day, then increase it to more days inbetween doses until you have gotten to the point of not needing it. I believe that even with this method there will be discomfort, occasional withdrawal symptoms. There doesn't seem to be a way to quit without it. To help with the body aches take ibuprofen, but do not take more then the recommended doage. To help with any nausea take benadryl or dramamine. To help with diarrhea get imodium, and if you have constipation then the medicine for that will be right nest to the imodium. Taking a shower/bath helps relieve muscle aches and washes the sweat off to make you more comfortable. Prepare for insomnia by having books or movies to keep you busy. I once read eight books in the span of three days due to the inablity to sleep, and these were 300pg books, my friend. I like to have a fan on and rotating, it is soothing and makes the sweating more bearable. Remember to keep your head up and have positive thoughts. You need to make sure your wife is fully aware of your situation so she can take care of you and give you the support you need. Support is a major factor is quitting drugs. I hope this helps. Congrats on the baby. And good luck!
P.S. If you slip up and use again, or take a sub again do not beat yourself up about it. Quitting is beyond hard. Just evaluate what went wrong so when you try again there won't be any slips.
-SARAH
Hi everyone how are you? I am an ex motocross racer with lots of painful injuries and I got heavily addicted to my pain meds. I got help and got on subutex and at first started on a low dose. At first it was great with pain but slowly noticed myself increasing my dose. Around October of 2010 I was taking any where from 12 to 16 mg a day and my mg intake kept increasing. I tried to tell myself I did not want to go over 16mg a day. So I would try to take very small chunks and seriously 20 to 30 minutes later my pain would be so bad and headaches would be so intense I would have to take more. I was like a zombie all the time and when I found out my wife was pregnant I wanted to come off completely bc also of crazy mood swings I was having. I worked my way down to about 8 to 10mg and I feel like I'm going crazy everyday with nousia, headaches, body pain, I have a very low sex drive upwards my wife which is just odd bc she is not that far along yet and I have always been super attracted to her. I would rather go to a chiropractor or some other alternative to deal with my injuries. I just want out of this trap I have caused myself with this subutex, I'm miserable everyday and I want to be the best husband and father I can be. I'm terrified this detox feeling will never stop or if I start taking more again that there will be no end to the detox feeling and I will keep increasing my mg. I just want off of this stuff man it's seriously not cool. I have a small script of benzos so should I take those and quit the subs cold turkey? I just want to be me again without subtext. Can someone HELP PLEASE?!?!
I wish you lots of good luck with the urge to use. I myself have been taking opiates from codine to methadone and subutex and has run out of subutex a few days ago. Although the doc prescribed pecocet it does not really help all that much. I think subutex is a very strong medication. Dependancy on pain meds and opiates just does not go away. I tried to move to a new place and start and new life only to find that i still need my meds to feel normal. Sometimes i feel like i ruined my life. The best advice i heard is that once an addict - you should stay on meds for the rest of your life. I think that works the best.
Thanks for your thoughtful and articulate words, Jeremy. You're right, I'll take this as a warning. Luckily I feel better every day and I think I am almost back to full health now, despite the rocky transition.
Best,
D.
Hi there. I think the time it takes to become susceptible to withdrawals becomes shorter and shorter each time we use after achieving a period of sobriety. While it is unusual to me that you experienced withdrawals after only using for such a short period, it is no huge suprise.
When we use to the point of abuse and dependance it is as if we rewire our neural circuitry. This rewiring is permanent( my opinion) so when we relapse it take little time to develop a dependancy and the same tolerances we had before. There will be a "honeymoon period" when we relapse where we are able to capture glimpses of that first high we got when we first began using but this is always short lived.
The continuum of the length of time it takes to develop dependance, length of time it takes to relight an extinguished dependancy,severity and duration of withdrawal symptoms etc... is endless with any number of different experiences depending on any number of variables. Even the exact same conditions can have completely different outcomes for different people.
Although there is no definitive answer as to Why you reexperienced withdrawals after such a brief relapse, you now at least know that you will always be vulnerable to this no matter how long your active addictions remains in a period of remission. It was a warning shot across the bow and should serve as a reminder to you of what you may expect if you relapse again, no matter how brief or small.
I wish you all the best. Kind Regards Jeremy.