Hi There

[denise3606]

Well after my prayers this morning I realized what it was that was keeping me so down...It is the guilt of what I did to feed my addiction...I stole pills from that so called friend..I would always look in someone else's medicine cabinet to find some, sometimes I was lucky..I need to forgive myself..This is a big one for me as I never even cheated on my taxes...I know the Lord will and has already forgiven me, I just have to forgive myself...I promised Him that I would NEVER do that again and with that it means never take another pain pill again as they really do screw your head but most important your soul...The devil pills they are...I am going to read my scriptures and then go to the gym...Thanks for letting me share and being honest...Stealing was very hard to admit as that has never been in my makeup..I can't believe I allowed myself to be so awful...Many times as I was doing it...I heard that little voice...What are you doing, are you crazy, then I would say to  myself...I am, I think I am an addict....Never will I lower my standards and myself again...Have a great Tuesday Big Hugs

[DaleGirl]

I am happy that my words helped you. We are walking, talking miracles that are beating the statistics. Many addicts never find their way towards sobriety and even fewer have remorse. You are a good person always remember this: You are a good person who made some bad mistakes. It is drug use that drove us to insanity, we would not have ever even contemplated are actions if we where not under the influence. We where sick and now we are doing are best to be well. Just keep doing the next right thing and no matter what don't pick up a drug, because we pick up right where we left off. You are in my thoughts and prayers. [[[[[ hugs ]]]]

[jonboi76]

Hi there Forgiveness is a Hugh part of recovery forgiving you your enemy,s yourself & others all the time Its time to clean your side of the street, as someone said you will find forgiveness in the rooms of AA CA NA & in a big book that you work into your life everyday & another great thing that appeals to most of us is a higher power of your own understanding & what appeals to me is willingness & to the best of my ability, iv tried to get clean for a while & it wasn't until I went into those rooms & heard people talk about me & I knew then I wanted what they have But for me,  good luck & god bless you You will be just fine ;)

[denise3606]

I have really been thinking a lot of what you said...When I was on the treadmill, I was thinking of how true, even these experiences make us better people...How else would I really understand the horror of this drug if I had not gone through it myself...So now what I need to do is be the best person I can be and chalk it up to a lesson well learned and never to do it again...As I really understand now that even the most honest person can fall giving the devil the space to do his work...Addiction has no conscience or value...It is truly the work of the devil and I for one have learned my lesson...I must always always be on the defense and alert of the cunning one...Big Hugs..I am leaving to do service right now...

[HappyDays2Come]

Yes, you have to forgive yourself. I, too, stole pills from family members. I also took my innocent toddler with me to pick up pills all over the state. Now that I'm sober I still feel awful for doing that. I'm working on forgiving myself but it's really hard. Really hard. I try to think that I'm redeeming myself by being the best person I can be today. Each day I take another step in the right direction and eventually I'll be a light for others. We all have horror pill-related stories, but look where we've come. We're making positive changes in our lives, and in the lives of others. We're already forgiven, and it's time for us to forgive ourselves, too.

[DaleGirl]

I to had to forgive myself for my past. Once I did that my life became one where I was proud, a life that could help others by sharing my experience, strength and hope. I found a lot of salvation and understanding in the rooms of A.A. and N.A. I finally realized after I became a mommy 5 years ago that I could eventually share what I went through with my little girl someday, hopefully it will help her not to make the same choices I did, I can also help another addict by sharing my story. Always remember, the disease of addiction and the drugs is what forced you into being a person you where not. If there wasn't drug use you would not have done the things that brought you to such pain and shame. A big step on your road to recovery is forgiving yourself. Be proud of who you are and who you are becoming, know that you had to go thru what you did to become that person, a better person with understanding of others, a person that will be there for others and not judge. Having  spirituality helps so much. Our God is a forgivng one he understands. LIfes lessons make us better people. God bless yoi