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Horrific Depression from withdrawals???????????
I have been on oxycontin for 1 month; 20mg every twelve hours, although I took the two 20mg. tabs in the morning, every morning. I have fibromyalgia. I used to take vicodin, and most other short-acting narcotic meds prior to the oxycontin. I ran out 5 days prior to my next appointment which did not happen to fall on an even 30 days; my prescription was for 30 days...so now I am on my 4th day and feel like I want to die. The first two days were the worst depression I have ever gone through. I almost took my life. Here is my main question: I have read close to 100 posts if not more, and many of the withdrawal symptoms do NOT say anything about depression. Depression was my absolute worst symptom!! Is this not a normal withdrawal symptom? Most symptoms are the flu-like and diarrhea which I definitely did have!!!! The headaches are absolutely killing me. I need to look for something other than this narcotic junk to help me with the pain of fibromyalgia, although I didn't find it yet. I surfed the website many times on fibromyalgia, and tried it all just about. But if this is what narcotics is going to do to me, I'd rather bear the pain of fibro, although that will be very difficult. Does one get SEVERE depression and constant crying spells from withdrawing from narcotics? Also, I can hardly eat a thing now for 4 days.. I could just vomit thinking about it. Thank you for your kind reply!
Oh sweetie, tappering is NOT a whimpy way out! You do it however you need to, point is, you are DOING it!!!
I'm still in a world of addiction, so i admire your strength.
Maybe a different antidepressant would help you better. There are many different kinds, and sometimes it takes trying a few out before you find the right one for you.
Stay with us, we need you, and you won't regret it!!!
Lv Jenny
I'm still in a world of addiction, so i admire your strength.
Maybe a different antidepressant would help you better. There are many different kinds, and sometimes it takes trying a few out before you find the right one for you.
Stay with us, we need you, and you won't regret it!!!
Lv Jenny
Welcome to the forum my new found friend! My story is a lot like yours...though I do still have my back pain, I did manage to get clean and it is almost two months of being clean at this point.
I'm wondering if you've read enough of this forum to get the nutritional advice. Look through the threads for Thomas's recipe, or email me at ***@**** and I'll send it to you. See, the medication really drains your body of nutrients and neurotransmitters that affect mood. This, along with the shame and spiritual emptiness that comes with addiction, creates such a deep depression that the cycle is very hard to break.
If you are already on prozac, don't take the supplement 5 HTP, since it also increases serotonin, and too much is a bad thing. But do consider taking modest amounts of zinc, magnesium, calcium and manganese..Just take it in multimineral tablet form. This helped me a lot.
But, what helped most was the spiritual and emotional nourishment I've found by finding this forum family, where I could get the love I no longer felt worthy of. I have found more love here, among us addicts, than almost anywhere else I've searched. And that love is now here for you as well.
By the way, to post up higher where more people will see your words and post back to you, just answer a post on one of the threads nearer to the begining.
lots of love,
WW
I'm wondering if you've read enough of this forum to get the nutritional advice. Look through the threads for Thomas's recipe, or email me at ***@**** and I'll send it to you. See, the medication really drains your body of nutrients and neurotransmitters that affect mood. This, along with the shame and spiritual emptiness that comes with addiction, creates such a deep depression that the cycle is very hard to break.
If you are already on prozac, don't take the supplement 5 HTP, since it also increases serotonin, and too much is a bad thing. But do consider taking modest amounts of zinc, magnesium, calcium and manganese..Just take it in multimineral tablet form. This helped me a lot.
But, what helped most was the spiritual and emotional nourishment I've found by finding this forum family, where I could get the love I no longer felt worthy of. I have found more love here, among us addicts, than almost anywhere else I've searched. And that love is now here for you as well.
By the way, to post up higher where more people will see your words and post back to you, just answer a post on one of the threads nearer to the begining.
lots of love,
WW
Thank you so much for your much needed support. By the way, Jenny, I am on anti depressants (prozac right now), but it doesn't seem to be helping. And I have been trying to taper off, at least during the week with an eye toward total recovery. I know this probably seems like a wimpy way to go to all of you who have successfully beat this thing, but it is all I can muster right now. And the lessening of the dosage during with week is making me start to feel a little more human, less dead inside. Please write when you can, I need all your love and support. Thanks again. P.S. How does one post closer to the top?
You have found a very special place here. Please continue to post for support, you will be comforted here with so many who feel your EXACT pain!!!!
You sound like me in so many ways, although I don't have the physical pain, I so deeply relate to your words.
You need to find out if you do indeed suffer from depression, and are self-medicating yourself with the pills.
Sounds like you are, and need some help with a good dr (far and few, but they are out there).
You have fallen into a trap of the pills taking over the part of your brain with gives me natural chemical happiness.
The pills have taken over, and it's hard to 'feel' as you should without them unless you quit (easier said then done, but possible). You may need the help of a good antidepressant to lend a hand their the hard times, adjustment of no more pill induced happiness. Please keep coming back and read through this forum. These people are a godsend, and they will be here whenever you need to talk! Their words are from the heart and soul, and you will never feel 'alone' again as long as you trust and stick closeby!!!!
Addiction is a horrible disease, but a drug-free life is a wonderful thing, but you need to stop beating yourself up.
You are a wonderful person. It's the best of people that get caught up in addiction. We are the ones who feel so deeply about life and take things to heart, making us easy prey for addiction. But know in your heart that addiction is a disease just like cancer or heart disease. You are NOT a BAD person!!!! You need to love yourself and know that you are WORTH the battle to getting yourself happy and healthy again!
Stay closeby, you won't regret it!!!!!
Good luck sweetie!
Lv Jenny
You sound like me in so many ways, although I don't have the physical pain, I so deeply relate to your words.
You need to find out if you do indeed suffer from depression, and are self-medicating yourself with the pills.
Sounds like you are, and need some help with a good dr (far and few, but they are out there).
You have fallen into a trap of the pills taking over the part of your brain with gives me natural chemical happiness.
The pills have taken over, and it's hard to 'feel' as you should without them unless you quit (easier said then done, but possible). You may need the help of a good antidepressant to lend a hand their the hard times, adjustment of no more pill induced happiness. Please keep coming back and read through this forum. These people are a godsend, and they will be here whenever you need to talk! Their words are from the heart and soul, and you will never feel 'alone' again as long as you trust and stick closeby!!!!
Addiction is a horrible disease, but a drug-free life is a wonderful thing, but you need to stop beating yourself up.
You are a wonderful person. It's the best of people that get caught up in addiction. We are the ones who feel so deeply about life and take things to heart, making us easy prey for addiction. But know in your heart that addiction is a disease just like cancer or heart disease. You are NOT a BAD person!!!! You need to love yourself and know that you are WORTH the battle to getting yourself happy and healthy again!
Stay closeby, you won't regret it!!!!!
Good luck sweetie!
Lv Jenny
Dear lady, Shotsy is right.....do not despair and do post higher up on the forum so you will get more response. Listen to me here right now. First off you are just the same as us with a very familiar story. You are NOT human garbage, nor a weakling. You are very strong as you have made the FIRST step to recovery. You have come forward and have been truthful to yourself and to us. You will not find a better source of support or compassion as you will find here. We ALL have had to make that first leap from being behind the scenes to posting. There are many success stories here me being one of them. I am an addict who has been clean for over six months after decades of use. I started with a back problem just like many here. Pain and injury are nothing to be ashamed of friend. The first thing you have to do is to start LOVING yourself as we love you, and we DO love you no matter what and there is nothing you can do about it as Skipper says! Welcome to the forum and the road to recovery. Remember you are not alone and to take each day as it comes. We will help you when you stumble and carry you if you fall.Do not be afraid. You might be suprised with the support you husband might give if you tell him the truth. Isn't that what being married is all about?
I carried the secret for years before telling my wife and she gave me nothing but love and support. The worst part of it was the dread of the unknown that never came! I shall keep you in my prayers my new friend. Reach for the Light of freedom!
Power & Magick 2 U,
Wizard
I carried the secret for years before telling my wife and she gave me nothing but love and support. The worst part of it was the dread of the unknown that never came! I shall keep you in my prayers my new friend. Reach for the Light of freedom!
Power & Magick 2 U,
Wizard
Hey, hon. Don't despair. Your going to be okay. Just keep telling yourself. I'd like you to post closer to the top, just in case nobody sees this down here. There are alot of people with the experience to help you out better than I. Just know that I care. Just go up top and post okay. See ya up there . Bye, Shotsy
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