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How Many Days Clean? - Don't Care Anymore...
I'm not counting the days clean anymore. Today is 30 something and I'm 100%. Everything is back to normal. I'm hitting the weight room 4-5 days a week again, loving life again and am thankful for the support and friends I've made on this board.
Its tough at the start. You think things will never return to normal, but as the wise ones had told me (Sadinmichigan, mimi1313, etc...) on this board have stated, it does.
I'm putting vitamins, protein and minerals in my body instead of pain killers. Unfortunately, I think I have more lactic acid right now than anything else, but its all good.
Its tough at the start. You think things will never return to normal, but as the wise ones had told me (Sadinmichigan, mimi1313, etc...) on this board have stated, it does.
I'm putting vitamins, protein and minerals in my body instead of pain killers. Unfortunately, I think I have more lactic acid right now than anything else, but its all good.
Interesting that you should quote Mark Twain, since he made a telling statement on another addiction -- one that destroys only the body:
“Quitting smoking is easy. I’ve done it hundreds of times.”
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“Quitting smoking is easy. I’ve done it hundreds of times.”
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i hope i never quit counting.
counting helps me remember that i'm not cured from the disease of addiction, but that i've been granted a reprieve that must be renewed daily.
It also helps me during the hard times, when my brain latches on to the idea that using (just a bit) would be ok, good, even necessary. i think back to the x days without using that i've already lived through and it doesn't seem so difficult to say "well, not today."
another helpful aspect of keeping track of my cleat-time is that it provides a clear benchmark for the mental, emotional, spiritual and physical changes that go on in recovery.
by day-89 i was a much different person than on day-1, but day-90 brought a mental change that i wasn't expecting. i have since learned that the brain of an addict seems to do an auto re-set right about 90 days out -- it's like the addiction switch was switched off. prior to that change i believe that i was still in active-addiction, but just not using.
as time passed i continued to be amazed by the constant change. i wouldn't notice it day-to-day, but when i looked at 3-months from 6-months it was huge. seeing 6-months from 1 year was difficult to believe. the same for looking at 1 from 2.
for a long time i kept thinking "now i'm was back" or "now i see the big picture," etc. i was disabused of that notion so many times that i now i quickly kick it out when it tries to crawl into my head. as i view it now, recovery is a process of continual growth in every aspect of life.
i'm glad there's no genie who could have granted (but limited me to) my wish-list-for recovery on day-40 -- i would have been selling my recovery and myself short.
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counting helps me remember that i'm not cured from the disease of addiction, but that i've been granted a reprieve that must be renewed daily.
It also helps me during the hard times, when my brain latches on to the idea that using (just a bit) would be ok, good, even necessary. i think back to the x days without using that i've already lived through and it doesn't seem so difficult to say "well, not today."
another helpful aspect of keeping track of my cleat-time is that it provides a clear benchmark for the mental, emotional, spiritual and physical changes that go on in recovery.
by day-89 i was a much different person than on day-1, but day-90 brought a mental change that i wasn't expecting. i have since learned that the brain of an addict seems to do an auto re-set right about 90 days out -- it's like the addiction switch was switched off. prior to that change i believe that i was still in active-addiction, but just not using.
as time passed i continued to be amazed by the constant change. i wouldn't notice it day-to-day, but when i looked at 3-months from 6-months it was huge. seeing 6-months from 1 year was difficult to believe. the same for looking at 1 from 2.
for a long time i kept thinking "now i'm was back" or "now i see the big picture," etc. i was disabused of that notion so many times that i now i quickly kick it out when it tries to crawl into my head. as i view it now, recovery is a process of continual growth in every aspect of life.
i'm glad there's no genie who could have granted (but limited me to) my wish-list-for recovery on day-40 -- i would have been selling my recovery and myself short.
CATUF
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i love to fish also and i don`t keep them `iam on day 30 and doing good also god luck on everything
you're a great inspiration to everyone. you have the attitude it takes. i'm 190 days clean and still learning to live w/o pills.
Got a new supp. that has beta alanine as part of the complex. Its also a vaso-dialator. 4 tabs right before workout and I can go 3x longer, with a massive pump and recover much more quickly.
Get some beta alanine get the primoforce brand. Do two of the little scoop it comes with 30 minutes before training. You wont even get a burn and be able to train twice as hard an long. Excellent supplement for the money. Just be prepared, you get a little flush from it in the beginning.
Too bad we didn't catch and release with the pills. LOL
I am so glad that things are going so well for you! You deserve it.
I am so glad that things are going so well for you! You deserve it.
Sorry ladies, I practice Catch and Release strictly...
Besides, who wants to eat any Salmon from Lake Michigan anyway... PCBs, lead, raw sewage from Milwaukee, etc... Yum!!!
Besides, who wants to eat any Salmon from Lake Michigan anyway... PCBs, lead, raw sewage from Milwaukee, etc... Yum!!!
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Congrats on 30 something!!!! That is great. Glad to hear you are feeling better and working out. Umm Sad needs to share those fish too!!!!! Stay strong sara
Whooooooooooooo Hooooooooooooooo..I am so glad your feeling good..(smile)..that is great to hear..Now you just got to get your a$$ out there and fish..and then send me some..LOL...♥Lisa
I had a rough first week.
2nd week was much better.
3rd week, felt gassed all week.
The beginning of the 4th week, felt something nothing less than miraculous. Within 2-3 days, everything started to get dialed in and I stuck the flag in the peak of Everest...
Best of luck. Hang in. I swear to you, you will be normal again...
2nd week was much better.
3rd week, felt gassed all week.
The beginning of the 4th week, felt something nothing less than miraculous. Within 2-3 days, everything started to get dialed in and I stuck the flag in the peak of Everest...
Best of luck. Hang in. I swear to you, you will be normal again...
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