Double Digits!!

[Andie015]

Hi everyone....I just wanted to say I have reached double digits in clean time....10 months!!!  I'm so close to a year I can taste it!!!!  Every month I put behind me just blows my mind!  Every time I tell my husband I'm another month along he asks me the same thing.... "Did you ever think you could make it this far?" And I always answer the same...not in a million years did I ever think I could go even 2 days with out a pill....literally. Please know, for all of you struggling on your first days, that true happiness and complete PEACE is possible...no more counting, plotting and stressing about pills. It is absolutely possible and completely worth what you are going through....it truly is. Thank you all for being my second "family" in my struggle....the family I can be myself with and speak my true addict mind with and get complete understanding and support....thank you all....

[meegWpaw]

Andie congrats!  seems like you're getting time faster than I can say jack rabbit!  you go girl!  so happy for you!

[dominosarah]

Congrats on 10 months clean!!  You sound better with each passing day.  Focus on who you have become now as that person back in the day doesnt live in you anymore.  Always hold your head high as you have much to be proud of~sara

[Brightfutureahead]

Woohoo! TEN months is fantastic...you're right...a year is just around the corner! The important part is that you have peace and are feeling great! Congrats!

[toothfairie]

Awesome post Andie!!  i'm right behind you girl!  following your blazed trail...so great to see you post....way to hang in their!!  congrats on those double digit months! i'll be there soon!!  

[digger1976]

Congratulations Andie, 10 months is awesome, so very well done! Proud of you for sure, ;)

[VICourageous]

OH GIRL, You have come a long way B-A-B-Y..I try not to think of the past when I on these drugs and the things I did either. Once in a while I remember something and tell my Hub. He just looks at me..

[Andie015]

Sorry...completely appreciate this place and those who dwell here. You are the people who get me...and I can't say thank you enough for having a place to vent...it really means a lot... Thank you guys.... :)

[Andie015]

My husband just brought up an incident from my using days. We were talking about my clean time and he asked me "did you really drop a vacuum on your foot that day?"  A question he has repeatedly asked me for years. I finally said.."no, I did it on purpose". And started crying. He knew I did this but has kept bringing it up and just wanted me to admit to it. It was in this moment i realized that I really can't confide in him about any of this. He just doesn't understand. That's why MH is so dear to me. I might not post every day but I con

[OpenMind24hours]

Congratulations on 10 months!! Keep them coming! Every day do something positive for your continued recovery and recovery will always be good to you.

[ricart70]

Great job Andie !!  You are doing so good. I know it's paying off for you now at ten months !!  ;)))

[Andie015]

Thanks guys....I put a post on the "what's the worst thing you have ever done for pills" post and quickly began to backslide with my confidence, just remembering all of the repugnant things I have done for pills quickly knocks me off of my confidence pedestal. . I just need to move forward and NEVER look back....it's the only way to stay on the straight and narrow....

[cork712]

So great! the year mark is SO close! It's always a boost to see names from this past year who are getting on with life. I may not comment much but I see you all and am so happy to see others hitting milestones like that. Best to you and all you others keeping on the path!

[VICourageous]

Hey Girl, Great Job Indeed. I sure like it when you are on here and go into the posting. You Rock my Friend and I am very proud of you. Time is just ticking on, is it not!  I am almost at a Year and I remember us back when, like it was yesterday. lol

Bless

[EvolverU]

Brava Andie on all your struggle & hard work! 10 mos! Wow! You're an inspiration. (May I & many others follow in your wake.) Treat yourself well today & everyday 'cause you deserve it.

[Dane74]

Way to go!!!!  Great job, keep on adding up all your clean time and before you know it you will start losing count.  Pat yourself on your back and give yourself a treat for all your hard work, this is not easy by any means, and it just goes to show that hard work does pay off!!!!