Day 4...and I'm still here

[ATigermom]

Well this is day 4 and everyone that was praying for me last night, and I know that there were some who were, I am still here.  I have not been to sleep at all, someone told me yesterday that day three was the worst for coming off tramadol.  I'm beyond tired and I want some sleep, but the kids will be off the bus in 2 hours and I have to keep going, also with the RLS I could not sleep anyway.  Being the recovering addict that I am, I could not have tapered off anyway.  There is no such thing, I could not be trusted.  It's do or die...so I'm doing.  I keep thinking I beat a 20-white-bar-a-day xanax habit, this should be nothing.  But it sure feels like something, anyway the fiddlers can stop playing the sad music now, I got my self pity party out of the way....lol....on a serious note please keep up the prayers if you pray, this little momma needs them!  

[ATigermom]

Thank you, all of you.  I know it will get better, it is so amazing how just sitting in front of this computer and talking to you guys makes me take a deep breathe, remember where I came from, and know I can do this.  I think I will try the melatonin, I see a lot about it.  This too shall pass, I know.  

[Hope58]

I know what you mean about NO SLEEP. I am on Day 8 (also form Tramadol) and I am feeling better each day, but cannot sleep but 2 hours a night if that. Aghhhh!
I have tried Unisom, but did not really want to put another Drug in my body-- it did help a little. Then a couple of people on this forum suggested melatonin. I bought some at GNC and took 4  3mg tablets last night, and finally got about 3  hours of sleep. I guess that is something.
Best of luck. Each day gets better!

[ATigermom]

yes, I actually have been going to meetings for 11 years! But here is the problem.....I thought I was doing the right thing when I told that Dr. that I was a recovering addict and he gave me those so called non addictive, non narcotic pills.  Now I have to go in my meeting and tell all those people who have been so proud of me, that for the last 3 years I have been taking tramadol, and I am addicted to them too.  So I get to start my sobriety date over, not that I have not had to before, I fell off the wagon more than once, but I keep trying and someday  I will get it right..Hell I know the twelve steps, I was only fooling myself. Foolish pride maybe, but I HAVE to go to my meetings, and I HAVE to work an honest program and that means telling all the truth, and it is very hard!

[confused456]

Good job on day 4. Hope you can get some rest soon. I will add you to my list for prayers!! Best of luck to you.

[worried878]

Sounds like u r winning the battle so far...you beat the xanax..u can do this too...have you thought about aftercare like AA or NA?  it helps with the staying clean part of it and I have found it very helpful...keep posting

[cathy5841]

yeah tiger mom you are doing great...i remember the no sleep was awful...the ggod news is it gets better.  the bad news is it takes awhile.  i found sleep formula at gnc..all natural...it worked for me...i didnt sleep 8 hrs but i would get 3 or4 in a row...i was happy.  like you i didnt slep at all.  hang in there hon..the sun will shine again.  much love and prayers
cathy