Hydrocodone Financial/Social Ruin?

[Determined2bfree]

Hi, I am new to sign in but have been reading and getting support for a long time due to this 8 year relationship with those powdered demons called Vicodin. I am on night 4 of withdrawal. This my 4th or 5th withdrawal and I am soooooo tired of starting over.  I used to do so many things, have energy, money and  overall happy.  I now stay at home, checked out of social interaction, checked out on friends, and fake it in front of my 13 and 10 year old as much as I can.  It's like when that semi-truck hit me 8 years ago my body lived, but that was the beginning of my soul, my character, personality dying.  I wake up waiting for bedtime.  Existing, not living.  But I WANT to live!! Just don't remember what life used to be like before those pills got out of control.  I just wanted to ask how many people have have ruined relationships and poured out all money and resources to support this habit?  What did you do to get it back (financially stable) or did you put it back together?  Thanks for any replies  

[kuku4kokopuffs]

I have a few failed marriages behind me I can chalk up to drug and/or alcohol abuse, mine and theirs to some degree. Lost too many good jobs over the years to count. Spent my last dime on drugs then manipulated people out of their money, or drugs. On and on...

Now I have something to show for the money I spend, and for a while ebay was my new addiction. :P I have lots of nice things, a couple hundred bucks in my pocket, and more food in my kitchen than a food pantry. I've given up on ever being in another relationship though.

It's not too late to make a comeback.

[dirtydirk]

sounds like 8 yrs is a normal i cant do this n e more around here, i try and tell everyone that comes here only months or a yr into there addictions  there already ahead of the buck...!!!!   whether its months or years its not easy  but life is so much better when you get you self back to who you were!!!

[dirtydirk]

I once had 2 many friends to count  a good paying job decent car nice place.....juggled girls with the best of them and slowly but surely   i lost my job then came my place my money was the next to go downhill with no income and lots of spending my friends started noticing i was becoming different so they had there eyes on me and like u i felt it was easier to just check out on friends....... now i gotta (or i did) started selling drugs to pay for mine and te be able to live my car finally broke down from not keeping up on it and at this point ive traded my good girls in for drug addict ones!!! In the end ive lost most of my belongings and most of my friends dont trust me n e more nor do they even care much like i didnt for years b4 this.......addiction will suck the life outta u and will dwindle your way of life for u and sadly your kids (im sure u a good mother) i never thought it could happen to me but it did and many ppl i personally know and have met  on here.....Ive yet to crawl out the hole ive dug myself the last 8 yrs....granted im only 56ish days clean but just know Rome wasnt built inna day and we cannot fix years upon decades of addiction in the snap of the fingers!!!   congrats on 4 days i as u tried many many times with no luck.....but when your done your done!! Its gotta be sumtin  u really want.....use your old self u miss and your kids as inspiration!!!  IT CAN B DONE  !!!!    

[Ldytaz]

There will be a lot of ppl on later to answer your questions and for support.I just want to jump in and tell u congrats for taking your life back.i was on them for 8 years for pain management,only loosing control the last year of taking them.Like any drug we addicts cant control it.We always want more.To the point of financial ruin and family separation.I never lost my family but,the last year was always looking for more.They all knew and so did I that I needed to stop.Pain aside there had to be a better way.I went the wrong way.I was on 4-6 tabs a day never more or anything else.My script would always run out the last week and after 2 days sick I would look for more.But,now I have just stopped methadone.On day 3.It is the hardest thing I have ever done and wish I would have stopped at the tabs.Be proud and keep going.Everything else will come back.Take it one day at a time and please think about after care.remember we are powerless if and alone if we don't get help.Good luck and come back.