I NEED A MIRACLE

[david757]

i need help serious help, ive been addicted to opiates for about 4 years, the last 2 of which ive been on methadone (50mg/day). ive also been abusing adderrall which i get from the doc once a month. im stuck in a cycle where i take the adderrall until i run out (usually about 10-14 days), go through 1 week of withdrawals,  then 1 week of feeling GREAT and being free, and then going to my usual appointment to get a script for more. i want out so bad but i havent been able to break this vicious cycle and it is absolutely destroying my life. without the adderrall im extremely tired and unmotivated (even after the first week of being off it- because of the methadone). and when im on it im depressed and hopeless and miserable and my awareness of this trap is heightened. and then trying to get off the methadone is another beast altogether. i feel ive lost ALL control and my mind is run by satan. i need out, does anyone have anything that can give me some hope? ive only heard horror stories about methadone tappering and using suboxone to detox sounds just as bad. i appreciate all of your support, God bless  

[carockwell2002]

Dave,

        I know exactly what you are talking about with the adderall...I used to do the same thing with running out for the next two weeks and its usually one really bad week, the next week isnt quite as bad, the last two days of the second week you start to feel normal again,...Then that day rolls arfound and its time to get your new script and for me anyways, as soon as i get them back i usually stay up the whole night because i have taken too much and my tolerence was down...Then it just starts all over again and its TERRIBLE!!..lately when i run out i usually can get some now and i usually just buy them but its just feels like a never ending thing and your right when you said about the devil because ive said that many of times when i was having miserable nights. I just had one pill left when i came home from work tonight (30mg) capsule and i took it of course but now im soo frustrated and down because i have none left. I gave my friend 14 pills and he is going to repay me them back but when i asked to get some off of him tonight he didnt have any...Oh yeah im pissed because all i can think about is that i gave him pills whenever he needed them everytime and now he doesnt have any...but thats because im an addict and its really not worth it...So im trying to keep my spirits up right now and tyring to get through the night....Feel free to talk about it to me i can def share some expieriences with adderall and it also helps me when i talk about it to someone who is going through the same thing....you can do this!

[alicelost]

I can relate to your post-I was addicted to adderall for 2 yrs-and suboxone w/ it-for one year-when i got off the sub-i still did the adderall-i do have add-but my dr. decieded to take me off-I was a mess on/off it-but i did get off the sub/and the adderall-
I am now here-w/d from a relapse from opiates-(im an addict!)-but i had 2 yrs clean prior to this relapse..if you want to talk more-please message me-im back getting clean-and have had exp. w. both substances-and you can do it-
alice

[kim715]

I've taken adderall before when I was taking the vicodin,so I know how it makes you feel,but I don't know anything else about it.I was never prescribed it and was never addicted to it.I would take it here and there if someone gave it to me.

Methadone I know a lot about.I was on it for over a year.I don't want to sugar coat it,it is a rough detox,but it can be done.I went cold turkey off of 25 mgs and I have a little over 300 days clean.For as rough as that detox was,the rewards of being free of it,of having my life back,they don't even come close in comparison.Avisg is right,it doesn't take a miracle,just a plan and you will get tons of support here.Check out the website that steve gave to you,he's right about that doctor.Keep posting.If I can help in any way just let me know.All the best.....Peace...Kim

[steveo30]

well i dont know much about adderal but the methadone is not going to be easy.the problem with methadone is that it takes 4 to 6 weeks to withdrawal from compared to 7 to 10 days on something like lortab because of it's long half-life.i' going to give you a website that will help you out,it's direct to a doctor thats been there,has done that.t h e s o u r c e n m c @ m s n . c o m  he answers all e-mails

[avisg]

David ,
Many of us here have been where you are .It is really hard but you can get better .I would take care of one addiction at a time first being the adderol .You know the week after is going to be hell but you know how good you feel after .If you truly want off of it I would come clean with your doctor about it .Then work on the methadone
  Methadone is a very hard drug to get off of good news is we have many here that have and you can too .you dont need a miracle just a recovery plan and some good support