day 5 and ready for the next step... what is it? lol

[girlwithbrokensoul]

I did it i did it!!!!!  now that im feeling good and getting back in the swing of living sober i NEED no HAVE to come up with a realistic plan to stay clean.  i have been here so many times before and i cant do it again so this time im ready to admit that this is something that i will always battle with i cant just try to forget about it.  i dont have the money to go to doctors or anything and the aa meetings would be great but i live in a small town and i really dont want anybody in my bis.  What should i do and where should i start?  even though im over the worst of the withdraws im now dealing with all these thoughts and i cant slow my brain down long enough to get a clear plan  somebody help me please!

[girlwithbrokensoul]

Thank yall so much

[justneedtotalk]

You are correct in the fact that you are ready for the next step and this next step is crutial to start correctly.  You have gotten some good advice but would just like to add or emphasize a few of them.  EXERCISE....You are going to have good and bad days for the next few weeks.  Where a lot of people relapse is when the physical withdrawals are over and we forget how horrible they were and figure that we deserve a little "treat"....Basically during this next phase of your recovery, you will need to quickly help your brain re-learn how to produce its own chemicals.  Exercise, hydration, and proper diet are the single best way to get your brain firing on all cylinders.  Exercise not only helps your brain but it helps oxidize the rest of the bad stuff the pills left behind.  Even if you start feeling better, keep taking your vitamins and supplements.  I highly recommend a 100% weigh protien shake.  They are loaded with amino acids and you will need the protein to help rebuild brain structure.  Also, I know living in a small town can be difficult in regards to NA or AA but you need to put together some sort of support group.  WE cannot do this alone......I use the example of finding out you have cancer....You would do anything to get the necessary treatment right???  This disease/addiction is exactly the same thing.  This will kill you some day just like cancer and you need to treat it with the same urgency.  

Congrats on the five days and keep drinking lots of water, keep taking your vitamins and supplements and try starting out slow with the exercise but do it every day.  Try walking down the street and go as long as you can.  You will build up to walking 40-55 minutes at a fast pace and I PROMISE you will feel great afterwards.  Exercise will make your brain release natural endorphines and that will make you feel better.  Basically, you get out of detox, what you put into it!!!!

Good luck, keep posting, DON'T USE and God bless!!!!

[bama88]

do you have a large city close by? i have to drive 16-32 miles for meetings. i live in the country with a k. and Medicaid does pay for therapy..yep
and if you check with a large city hospital that offers mental health services they can point you in the correct direction...and help.

[texaslady68]

girl,

I believe N/A has an online forum that you can join.  You may want to look into that and of course this group of people here has been a great help to me.  I have found it helpful to journal.  I have written down all of issues that I think drove me to drugs over the years.  It is very tough to write all of these painful memories down, but it gets it out of me to where I am not carrying it all around and this has helped me understand as I have begun reading it that these things were not my fault and that I should not turn to drugs to numb the pain of what others have done to me.  They are the one's that need to do some soul-searching to learn how not to be so hurtful to  others.

[girlwithbrokensoul]

I have medicaid,  do u think it would cover something like that?   im a student and im a waitress so i get help i just didnt think it covered that!  All i know is i have done this too many times and never before had a aftercare plan and each time i went back to the same thing.  i cant go through this again so im willing to do anything to stay clean at this point!

[amber22245]

i live in a small town too and i feel that if i went to a meeting here i would be talked about or see too many people i used to score with so....i understand....wish i had an alternative for ya....if ya find one though let me know for real

[MikeInFrance]

Congrats on Day 5! Glad you are feeling better! There are some online meetings also so maybe that would work for you? Anyway ...check out SMART Revovery ...just google it and u'll find it easy. Hope it helps ;)

[dominosarah]

As we say here, getting clean is the easy part, staying clean is the hard one.  It is such a mental game.  You said you dont have any money, can you go to Social Services and get some help with medical?  Usually they will pay to see a therapist.  Some people talk with their minister.

Congrats on 5 days clean!!!  Keep moving forward~~sara