Aa
still at work
Well everybody else has left the shop but i think im gping to make myself stay as long.as my body lets me ....i feel like im goin crazy im scared to go home and be alone i dont wanna be alone no more and dunno who to f**king call i dunno wtf to do with myself no more....am i crazy???have u truly become tgis horrible person....like wtf am i doing to myself
You need to give yourself some credit hun! You have done a great job at 7 days! It does sound like you have some emotional stuff that the pills were helping you to numb. It seems that a lot of us addicts have that problem. Maybe now that you are clean, then you can start seeing a counselor to help you work thru this. We believe in you so I hope you believe in yourself! Take some deep breaths and give yourself a pat on the back! If I was there then I would give you a big hug! Sometimes that's all that people need! Post your feelings or you can even send me a message. Just look at how far you have come in 7 days!
Pat's right., you do need to start a new thread., it takes a long time to scroll down. You know us addicts, We want it NOW Pray that you get a good nights sleep. God Bless
No we're not worried, just concerned. We all support each other through rough times and you're having a rough one.
If you need more support, start a new thread with a new question or just say Hello and you will receive more support and meet some new people.
The weekends are a little slow but there is usually always a few here going thru withdrawals or just can't sleep.
If you need more support, start a new thread with a new question or just say Hello and you will receive more support and meet some new people.
The weekends are a little slow but there is usually always a few here going thru withdrawals or just can't sleep.
Well ive made it home.... im really sorry if i have made anybody worry about me in any kinda way....i just have to get some of these things out my mond and dunno how else to
I have never liked that saying anyway. Sometimes it's just too much.
I hate the flashbacks. It sounds like you have a lot to get out. You are really going to need some support. Maybe you should check out an addiction counselor.
You are doing everything you can at this moment to turn your life around. You can still make up for past mistakes. You just have to focus on getting through this horrible detox right now. Seriously, there aren't many people who could work and go through the detox that you had.
You are clean. Many people can't say that. Maybe start saying it to yourself and think of the good things that you have done and are going to do. Just for today. You can beat yourself up tomorrow.
Okay!!!! :)
I hate the flashbacks. It sounds like you have a lot to get out. You are really going to need some support. Maybe you should check out an addiction counselor.
You are doing everything you can at this moment to turn your life around. You can still make up for past mistakes. You just have to focus on getting through this horrible detox right now. Seriously, there aren't many people who could work and go through the detox that you had.
You are clean. Many people can't say that. Maybe start saying it to yourself and think of the good things that you have done and are going to do. Just for today. You can beat yourself up tomorrow.
Okay!!!! :)
The best time to go to a meeting is when you don't think you need one.
You can sit there in work..inside your own head, basically torturing yourself..or you can go talk to people who can help you. The choice is clear for me.
I hope you get through this.
You can sit there in work..inside your own head, basically torturing yourself..or you can go talk to people who can help you. The choice is clear for me.
I hope you get through this.
I kno i should go and i will just dont think tonight is goin to be it....im still at work and am planning on working till i cant anymore....its like my f**cked up life keeps playng on repeat in my head and i cant stop it......all i can take from it is one life altering time after the next and i just cant help but wonder what could a 14 yr old lil bou have done to have a life turn to this.....it hasnt stoppes since i was 14 when my mom got sick.......and i dont want pity r anyone t feel bad for me just dont understand...they say god doesnt give you what you cant hamdle well i sure f**King.hope he knows im on the damn line of completely looseing it
Whatever you do, don't stop posting if you're not up to going tonight.
I think you are going to need us tonight if you don't go so please let us know whatever you decide.
We'll be here to support you.
You have worked all week through withdrawals which is amazing. Tomorrow is your first and only day off and you were really looking forward to it earlier in the week. You are going to feel that way again soon.
This feeling will pass too.
Don't stop posting!!! :)
I think you are going to need us tonight if you don't go so please let us know whatever you decide.
We'll be here to support you.
You have worked all week through withdrawals which is amazing. Tomorrow is your first and only day off and you were really looking forward to it earlier in the week. You are going to feel that way again soon.
This feeling will pass too.
Don't stop posting!!! :)
You know how comfortable you feel with us here?? Its the same at a meeting... People who will welcome you, embrace you, and know exactly where you are coming from!! You are a warrior!!! Look at how amazing you are doing!!! CONGRATS on your first week of freedom buddy!
I still remember my first AA meeting. I was scared to death. The only reason I went was to keep my husband from leaving me. I did it before he could so he would think maybe I was going to not drink except when we got with friend. HA I came away with a whole new reason to quit for myself. I met a lot of nice people like on here. The more they talked the more I could relate. I came away with a new lease on life and a reason for living. They helped me through the "hate myself" stage. That was 30 years ago. Wish I had remembered before I started the pain pills. God Bless
Ok, day 7. I am sorry I had forgotten. You are right where you are supposed to be. All of your feelings are coming to the surface. You NEED to talk with someone in person. A meeting is a great place to do that. Being around other addicts who have gone before you or are right where you are is healing. You can't do this alone honey.
Here is the link to find a meeting near you:
http://portaltools.na.org/portaltools/MeetingLoc/
Keep posting and let us know how you are doing.
Here is the link to find a meeting near you:
http://portaltools.na.org/portaltools/MeetingLoc/
Keep posting and let us know how you are doing.
LOL, yesterday was a rough one for you and I don't think you counted it.
Now back to N/A or A/A. You said you were thinking about it. Are you afraid because most people are at first. I know that I am and I have to go too. Do you live in a small town? If so is there another town close by that you could go to. I just really think that it would help you so much.
I won't nag any more but I want you to consider it. It's early enough that you can make a phone call to them and could meet up with someone first if you don't want to walk it alone.
Now back to N/A or A/A. You said you were thinking about it. Are you afraid because most people are at first. I know that I am and I have to go too. Do you live in a small town? If so is there another town close by that you could go to. I just really think that it would help you so much.
I won't nag any more but I want you to consider it. It's early enough that you can make a phone call to them and could meet up with someone first if you don't want to walk it alone.
I agree. It's just what you need right now. Its a place to go where you will not be alone, its free and there's coffee! Google na and see what you find.
I been thinking about it i just dont know where to begin im pissed with nyself for seelfing this pity **** ive never been this way and i feel like i have no control over myself or my thoughts and i just feelin f**Kin lost
Hey sweety,
You're on Day 7 and I was thinking the same thing as Rosy.
A meeting is a great idea. You will feel so much better after it.
You don't have to talk if you don't want to. Just walk in, grab a coffee and sit down. Everyone there has been where you are and I promise you will not leave there feeling worse. You won't feel as lonely.
I really, really, really think that it's the answer.
What do you think?
You're on Day 7 and I was thinking the same thing as Rosy.
A meeting is a great idea. You will feel so much better after it.
You don't have to talk if you don't want to. Just walk in, grab a coffee and sit down. Everyone there has been where you are and I promise you will not leave there feeling worse. You won't feel as lonely.
I really, really, really think that it's the answer.
What do you think?
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