I goimg to try to better my life for me and my faimly

[jpa0741]

I am 34 and have been hooked on Vikes for about 3-4 years on and off, but been on a good run the last 6months. I take 5-10 .750 a day. I am on my 3rd day CD. and am sure this will be the last. I think GOD must be cutting me a break on this one. I have whent though many withdrawls and they were much worst then this sofar.I must make this work for me and my family (Beautiful Wife, and the Best Daughter a father could have). I confessed to my wife my problem 2 days ago (again). She was very hurt and heart brocken. But also said she be byside me hellping get through this. She is truley my gift from god. The only things I am taking now is motrin for the pain and a sleeping seditive at night. I am still barely making it to work everyday. Wish my luck!!!!!!

[worried878]

good for u ..day 4 is great...so close...stay on ur toes...i remeber the first surge of happiness i had after quitting...it was unbelievable..and so clean!

[narkz]

i know personally that my pain is worse when i am not on narcs.

when i'm off, i have to take aspirin or ibu or naprox nearly every day.  i have some sport injuries.  despite the narcs not really workin for the high, for me, they've been the superior pain reliever.  i worry about long term effects from any of these nsaids, to be honest.  hell, vioxx had to be pulled b/c of heart attack risks, wth.  i thought these were supposed to be the "safe" ones.

ppl have noticed that i get irritable sometimes when i was on narcs but that phase seems to have changed at some point bc i stopped getting irritable when on.  it is strange how over the course of the years i've been on and off and on and off that their effects on me have changed bit by bit.  the thing now is that i cannot handle what seems to be the inevitable mid-day depression from the one-pill midday comedown.  it seemed like 2 during the workday then 1 at night was a level dosage with fewer sideeffects, but it's just a ****** habit

[jpa0741]

Well, I made it to my stepsons hockey game tonight. They won 1rst place by the way. Wasn't that bad. Phcyical w/d are not bad. It is mental part of wondering if I will ever get as excited about things that I love that did in the past. Golfing, hunting, outdoors. And I hope to have the energy to do that someday.

Thanks for letting ramble. I am praying for all in the same situation.

[jpa0741]

I am glad I found this place. I know my Daughter will love me more. I just keep going through moments of feeling hopeless. I am try snapping out of it when I feel this way, but we all know how hard that can be. Thanks for all the kind words everyone. I am on day 4 and more determined then ever. I just can't wait to get the feeling of being excited about something without a pill.

[worried878]

great decision and it sound like u r done with those puppies...u r so lucky to have 2 beautiful women who care about u...so much to be thankful for...and clean for

[corey411]

Congratulations on day 3. It will get better soon. It takes time to get back to your old self. I'm sure your daughter will always love her real dad. She will have even more to love once you are back to yourself and consistent in who you are. They can pick up the changes that drugs make in us alot more than we think and notice the good mood....then the not so good and wonder what THEY did. Keep fighting for your families sake. Good luck. Corey

[ILoveLukey]

Why do you say that you wonder if your daughter will love her real dad?

[jpa0741]

Thanks everybody. I sometimes wonder if my 4 year Daughter will love her real dad?

[malenurse57]

Great decision and you can do this. The worst is almost over and it will get better and better. Good luck and God bless

[beck25752003]

i wish you soooo much luck.  i know it is hard and we all know the mental part is the hardest. i was taking about the same as you on and off for about 5 years.   you seem to have great support and i know that has to feel good. just keep kicking butt and you really seem to want it this time as do i. you will be in my prayers!!!
beck

[road2recovery]

Since you have detoxed before you know the physical is almost over...You are so lucky to have such wonderfull ones supporting you...I see where some have no one, and it makes me sad...Just when u are craving think about how your wife was hurt, and i know you don't want to hurt her again and again...Make this your last time, and get your life back.....Also your daughter needs her dad, not her dad on pills..We are all here to support you too
Stay Strong
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