Officially day 4 for me. I took my last 2.5 mg of a pill on Wednesday morning around 6 am, and just had enough because I was withdrawing terribly anyway and took Thurs/Fri off from school and work and just did it. My withdrawals were really not as bad as last time, most likely because I had only been using this time for 2 months or so!! Wed/Thurs was hell, but I actually am getting a decent amount of sleep (although nowhere near the sound sleep I was getting when I was drugged up!) I was up and moving by yesterday, and today I was totally functioning! I utilized the 5 hour energy drink, and it truly does at least help to give you energy for a couple of hours to get things done! When it wore off, I just worked through it and had a pretty active, decent day!
So here I am now with the task of remaining sober, forever. I feel strong now, but I know from my past experiences that after a while real life takes over again, and we tend to forget just how painful withdrawals were, and just how easy it is to get hooked again by just taking that one pill! I am going to my first meeting on monday b4 class, and although I am not really knowing what to expect, I know it is the way to go. I am just so glad I never moved up the opiate ladder, as I have been offered other (harder) things when there were no percocets around, but always at least had the common sense to say a big fat no! I always chose to take the small withdrawals until the percocets could be located, and they weren't unattainable for very long! I guess I just want to know what is going to go down at the first meeting.. like will I get a sponsor that day? How do these meeting work? I would rather be prepared!!
Thank you everyone who has been supporting me through this. A little kindness can really go a long way (even through the internet!!)