Hi Nursey! I really understand how you feel! I went through this exact same thing when I went through my detox and withdrawals! Everyone around me was saying day 4, day 10, day 25, etc and I feel so much better! I feel great! Well, I didn't feel great! I felt lousy! I kept wondering, what is wrong with me, why don't I feel great, why is it so easy for everyone else?
All I can say is that everyone's timeline is different! Mine seemed so much longer than everyone else's! Hang in there, keep doing what you are doing! One day soon, you WILL wake up and realize that you do feel great! Your energy will return, your anxiety will get less!
Keep posting when you need some encouragement and support! There is always an ear available to listen! I'm pulling for you!!
I know you are struggling hun. And while 35 days is wonderful it is not a lot of time for your mind and body to heal. If you can hang in there and be patient it will happen. If I didn't believe that it would come some day believe me, I never would have stuck with it but I did and sure enough--it got better.
Try not to dwell on it and keep yourself occupied with things that you enjoy. And if you need to post about then do so. Be good to yourself.
And keep it in perspective. You need to "filter" through those overly optimistic posts from people who have just quit because I think some of us have the mindset of "faking it til you make it". Eventually you'll feel as great as you say you are, but it takes a lot of time to actually get there. And don't put yourself on someone's else timeline for getting better. We're all different in that respect, so remember that.
IB's right - 35 days GREAT! But it's still early so hang in there and whatever you do, don't use. Eventually you will feel as good as all of these people you're reading about. :)
Hi Nursey, I just want to remind you to exercise if your not doing so. That and music made such a difference in my mood and energy. It's funny. I felt like a million bucks at about day 14 and another member made me promise that I would give it 30 days. I did , but the funny thing is I think I felt better post detox then I did at 30. Now I have read that the inital jolt of happiness was a "pink cloud"(?), anyway that gave me enough hope to hang in there. I swear to you, the light will shine again.....Patience grasshopper (haha).
That's so true selfinduced.. I remember my "pink clouds" really well. They were great, but short-lived and not consistent. But a great relief during the whole process nonetheless.
Thanks guys; I appreciate the boost! I know I shouldn't be comparing myself to others but I am good at that! I need to remember that 7 years of use and abuse pales in comparison to 35 days. It's just so weird how I will be doing pretty good and then BAM for 2-3 days I feel like crap. I loathe self pityers and I feel like I am becoming one! My job is killing me right now too; it's dragging me down. Been looking for another one but times are tough. Not an excuse just the truth. Yes patience grasshopper!! (LOL) I really did laugh out loud too :-D Quick as you can, snatch this pebble from my hand ;-)
You're doing great and will be doing even better with each passing day. Anyway, give it time; your posts are very important to people just starting. Remember - good days and bad days, but even the bad ones clean are sooo much better than any good day using. Promise.
I felt better on day 16 than on day 28...I thought something was wrong with me ...like i was going backwards! By day 30 I wasn't sure I was so up and down...social things are still really hard...
All of the above comments are so great they were good for me to digest ... I love your honesty and think its great that you posted....
I have those feelings...not too much anxiety just thoughts about pills that sneak up in me...I always try to think through the buzz...
On a positive note...i stopped sneezing day and night...and my head diidnt pop off like i thought! It's still ontop of my shoulders (I think!) I just messaged you back :)
Hang in there Nursey, we really trash our brains in this stuff, it takes a long time to heal these suckers up! Over a month is great! You are well on your way, and that brain heals every day. Exercise, protein supplements and diet will help and ton.........focus on that you are getting better every day.
Bryan
Congratulations on your one month+. Keep being courageous and having faith. You have all of the things that you need to make it, and all of your feelings matter and are understood by all here, the good, bad and the ugly. Keep up the good work, of course your mood will fluctuate, and yeah, it's a ***** to pay the piper for seven years of abuse, but you can do it, and you too will be happy everyday, one day. Once you beat this thing, you have a greater perspective and even when things get rough in your life, you know what you have accomplished and that pride will carry you through life , with all it's ups and downs. Wait for it, it's worth it.