One of the worst days EVER

[suz410]

Yesterday I was overwhelmed with depression.  My nerves were shot and I was very very dizzy.  I couldn't focus or concentrate and every tiny little thing I had to do seemed nearly impossible.  I had zero energy or motivation and pitied myself all day.  I have an appointment w/ a therapist tonight so that's good.  I'm also looking into gyms so I can start doing what I love again.  I worked out from age 12 till I got pregnant w/ the twins and then life came to a screaching hault.  I need to get out of this gloom and doom feeling.  I was snapping at my kids yesterday and today feel so guilty for it.  I am PMSing too, and have forgotten to take my anti-depressant for the last 3 days for some reason.  I hope that's why I feel so down.  I literally felt like there was NO JOY IN LIFE WHATSOVER yesterday and while driving I thought if I crashed and died maybe the suffering would be shorter than what I'm going through right now.  I feel like this yet I MUST want to get better since I am seeking help (therapist) and calling gyms.  I just don't know what's wrong with me and I really don't understand myself right now.  I am on day 7.  Is this depression normal? I feel like I will never experience good feelings again.  Need to know if anyone else felt or feels this way.  It would help me to know I'm not alone.  Thanks.

[mama23babies]

I had my gallbladder out almost 6 years ago and found myself sicker than I was before. After 2 years my doctor finally did an endoscopy and showed I had too much bile that my boday wasn't breaking down properly. I was put on a med called questran and it helped. Every now and then I still have to go back on it.It's awful to be in pain and addicted to pain meds. I truly feel for you sweetie and hope things start to improve for you!!

[gnarly_1]

hey girl what your feeling is "rebound emotions" my conslor told me it was normal
when coming off the narcotics you sorta go from high to low in the flip of a switch
the lows can be debilitating ...just know with time it gets better you just started out in recovery so its all new to you but the emotional roller coaster is all part of it
aftercare helps a lot so defiantly go to your therapist ..I see a substance abuse conslor
once a week to vent on and it helps alot...give it a month and thing will look a lot brighter
and each month after gets better...you dident get addicted overnight so its going to take a wile to heal your brain...but with God and time you will heal..good luck and God bless....Gnarly  

[suz410]

Hey,
It seems like i'm not alone in this gloom and doom kinda feeling.  I just get so mad at myself. I was such a motivated and determined person in the past.  I was even voted "most determined" in high school.  I would go way above and beyond whatever I was doing.  I was a perfectionist and very thorough and thought I had control of everything in life.  Now I feel like I cant cope w/ the tiniest thing like feeding the cats.  Silly, I know, but it's very real. I hope I get over this and find my strength again.  Lots of love to you all.  You're all in my thoughts.
xoxo

[carylmaryl]

thank you it really helps knowing i am not alone and i am sure i will be writing more because i am waiting more results from doctors. sick of doctors. was fine before the galbladder surgery,seriously this is ridiculous. but thank u all for your support and wandee18 I wish you luck you can do it I know it ***** but your not alone.

[wandee18]

Hi,  Sounds like my yesterday also, i wanted to post and talk to anyone but i didn't i couldn't get out of the bathroom, and when i did i would get on here and read what everyone had to say, I've tappered to 6 vics and feel like i'm not going to get past that but i must.  I want to get out today anywhere but don't feel like seeing anyone..Wish me luck  PLEASE

[cleanmom]

You can turn to us. Thats what i have to do too. I dont have one single addict in my family or cirlce of friends, not even on alcohol, a couple ciggie smokers but thats it. I feel so alone, i don't have anyone to relate to, i am a black sheep. If it wasn't for everyone here i would not know what to do with myself. I wish every day that i had a real life person to talk with that has gone through this. I do not wish this on anyone, but i feel alone also, i just remember that i have all of you here and a counselor and thats what gets me through. I love you all. We have each other. Luv, Jacky

[carylmaryl]

Both of u sound like i just read my own story pretty much.  I have two girls I have to take care of otherwise i just dont feel a sense of meaning right now. I am usually a full of life kind of person but now i get excited about nothing.  The only reason i get up are for my kids because i know they need me but they too know i am not okay. I had galbladder surgery six months ago and ever since I have been chronically ill in pain, hospitals on pain meds. I am currently going through withdrawals because my doctor switched me from an opiate to this stadol nose spray stuff which blocks the opiate receptors. So now im sick and in withdrawals not wanting to be on meds to begin with and i just found out i have some condition that developed after my surgery callled Celiac diease and it messed up my small intestines. Theres more but i sit after i get my kids off to school like a hermit because i dont want to burden my friends with all my probs I still have to come off this stuff that my doc has me now in withdrawals as well at some point so i guess that will be a second wave, I dont know but thanks for letting me vent. I dont know who else to turn to.

[cleanmom]

Oh my dear girl, you are not alone. I have specifically made a doctors appointment because my depression is sucking the life out of me. I am having a really hard time finding the joy in ANYTHING and wonder every day what the heck is the point if i just have to feel so miserable and out of place. I am trying so hard to see through the drug every time i feel this way just like my drug counselor has taught me. This meaning that i was to use these same feeling will be waiting on the other side for me when the high wears off, and it would and there would never be enough pills. At some point we have to learn to cope and find contentment as is. I am a long ways from that, im clean, thats it so far. At least we have each other here and we do not have to feel alone. I hope i can help you to know this. Luv, Jacky