I have been addicted to narcotic pain pills for over 5 years. I've used vicodin, vicoprofen, lortab, percocet, tylenol #3/4, fioracet(has barb and not opiate, but kept away w/drawals nonetheless) ultracet, and tramadol. I've dabbled with morphine, methadone and oxycontin, but could count on one hand the # of times I have tried those last 3 the past 5 years. Anyway, after eating through 120 tramadol and 60 vicoprofen in the past 2 weeks or so, I found myself completely out yesterday. My dr. appointment isn't for 2 weeks, and I refuse to call or come in with some lame "my dog ate it" excuse, and I can't afford(and dont even know anyone) to buy off the street. I decided enough was enough...I'm tired of living this way. I kicked all this a few months ago, and I thought maybe I was done with it, but less than a month later, I was back at it again. My thing is, NOBODY knows that I have this addiction but myself. My husband certainly doesn't know(he knows I take pain meds occassionally for my back, which is seriously messed up, but i think ibuprofen would do wonders...but he doesn't know i'm addicted). I have 3 little kids to take care of, and can't afford to spend a week in bed. PLEASE if u have any suggestions for things that could help with withdrawal without me having to go to the dr, I could really use the advice. I know I've got to go through this, and I know it won't be painless, but its gotta be better than it is...I feel like I'm ready to crawl outta my skin, and sleep? yeah right! My heart is about to beat out of my chest, even when I'm just sitting here, and the anxiety is killer. Any suggestions would be a huge help.