If you see me getting high knock me down !

[Coolio Hernendez]

For some reason i keep telling myself "It's Friday....go ahead and down a bunch of ill's.....and then just get back to taper on Monday".

It's weird how many days i will tell myself "go ahead today and then cut back tomorrow"  I'm really getting sick of this......How can i type such positive things and give such positive advice....but then be such a negitive mess.....

I think i need some kind of major change in my mind.....I had it once...then i went and messed it up.......

[sadinmichigan]

I love your dots........too.....they do seperate words good.........LOL..
How was your night ? We don't need to kick your a$$ do we?............................................................................Lisa

[Coolio Hernendez]

You are correct......

[CATUF]

If you want to get (and stay) in Recovery,
you only need to change one thing . . . . . . . .

EVERYTHING.

CATUF
1131

[Coolio Hernendez]

I dont take it personal..........and i love my dots..............................i'm not the best at gramer.....................and so..................i use my dots.........................they really end a thought..........................and seperate words really well...............LOL.........................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.....................................................

[SOCAL742]

I love that! So true....

[jimi1822]

A whole person is one who has both
walked with GOD and wrestled with the devil.



                                   STAY STRONG MY BROTHER
                                   WE ALL HAVE YOU BACK  jimi

                                                      

[joann1975]

I love it hear too.... I just try and throw in humor so none of us crack under the pressure!

Coolio will make it this weekend.....we all will!

[SOCAL742]

Yes I do love it here obviously I think I log more flight hours here than any one just cruisin around. But really coolio dont take my dot jokes seriously we are here for you and we all really care. Just make each hour your goal if you have to one at a time!

[marcatj]

don't do it dude.  trust me.. you will only feel sh***y.  it's not the same anymore...

not too long ago i relapsed for a couple days.  all i got from that was feeling crappy - inside and out.  there was no wonderful "buzz," just a feeling of shame, no control, and feeling ill.

it's not worth it buddy.  trust me.  even in our cruddiest moments of sobriety (anxiety, depression - whatever it is that makes you want to use) doesn't even compare to how crappy you'll feel if you use.

ride out the feelings... they DO pass.

good luck buddy,
mj

[joann1975]

I can't believe you are yelling at me.................I have an extremely bad ear infection and you are yelling at me??? LMAO.............................................................
gotta love the good times here huh?

[SOCAL742]

I LOVE YOUR DOTS DO YOU LOVE MY CAPS? IM NOT EVEN YELLING EITHER. LOL

[joann1975]

The weekends are rough on all of us...it's like hey friday let's celebrate....it is how we are all programmed....I deserve a reward for working all week. Maybe we should all get weekend jobs! LMAO....says the girl who has no job...

Anyway...if I see you I will kick your a$$! Ditto for any/all of us!

SOCAL do you like my................................................? or do they bother you? LMAO!

♥♥♥JoAnn

[SOCAL742]

Oh but dont worry I had some choice words for him because Im getting real sick of his attitude, keep his struggles to himself and work through them like I do. i bring myself down enough I dont need him to push me off the cliff too.

[SOCAL742]

Maybe its all your dots driving you batty. No jk but really I have the same thing. And dear old husband geeeeeeeeeez texted me AGAIN today what are we doing tonight and I answered him I am taking the kids swimming and he has poker with his friends. Then not 5 minutes later he says no really what are we doing tonight. Its day 29 and we still struggle every day I know thats not positive advice but its honest. I know what his text mean every word we have been doing this long enough for me to know thats another invitation to flush our 29 days for one expensive pill! Weekends are really really the hardest for me. Sad but true

[gizzy32]

i hear ya!!! i want to go to the bar tonight, it's friday, worked all week and im in the mood cause ive been good, but ya know what, a couple drinks, all the excitement and next thing i know im in full blown coke mode and looking to get high. today is just one of those days i feel like partying, but because of that im going to sit my *** here all night so i stay out of trouble. like u said, u had it once and u messed up, so did many of us, but your back here doing the right thing and that takes strength man. you have done great since we both had that disaster night 2 weeks ago so keep going and stay out of trouble or i will kick your ******* a s s, lol. have a good one coolio

[Coolio Hernendez]

Thanx for your advice.....and you are right.

Hope all is well....

[sadinmichigan]

I will be happy to come kick your a$$ for you..LOL..
This is the same way of thinking most of us have had at some poit..just 1 more..and I'll start over..just one more refill and THIS time I'll take them right..it never ends..so you have to stop telling yourself that,obviously...This does take a major change of mind..instead of thinking about Friday..think about Mon..when you know how crappy you feel about it..you can do it!! Your not alone..keep posting..Don't let your mind play these tricks on you..