I'm Hurting

[dancinkat69]

ok here's my situation. I have been taking up to 400 mg. of morphine a day for about 3 months now. On days I dont have morphine, I will take 10 or more percocet, or i will shoot a few bags of heroin.  before this binge started, i had just gotten out of detox.  i got out Nov 11....starting using a week later.  and before the detox i was abusing all opiates, daily, for about 2 years.   Now i need to quit again. I consider this my Day 1, because i have no morphine or heroin. All i have is 11 percocet, which ARE ******* PRECIOUS to me right now, considering i dont even feel human. I took 4 just to get out of bed. Yesterday I took 300 mg. of morphine, and 10 percocet, total.  The two days before that i was on doing a lot of heroin. lets just say i spent $200 in 2 days .
My questions are...how can i make these percocet get me thru this?  and what do i DO??? im freaking out. my whole body is sore, my stomach is on fire, I DONT FEEL HUMAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  i dont wanna end up taking all 11 of these !!!!  and dont even tell me to flush them,  cuz im not gonna!!! ha!! but i need advice.....all ive been doing is drinking lots of water....and smoking cigs. HELP ME

[dancinkat69]

i dont work so i could go to detox again, but my boyfriend and his family who i live with have no idea ive been using again!!! and it would cause so much **** and i just cant deal with hurting them again

[allaboutmary]

Is inpatient rehab possible ?  I know this is awful, but you might just have to hunker down and go through withdrawal.  We can only help with emotional support.  Keep posting.

[IBKleen]

To be honest, at this point...you may as well just go cold turkey and suck it up for a few days. You would have had to have a plan in place before you got to this point.

I get concerned when I hear you are shooting dope to help with morphine withdrawal and then taking pills to help with heroin withdrawal. At some point, you are going to have to stop all drugs...I assume that is your goal.

You are going to be uncomfortable, but it will be over in a few days.

[Clamity2]

If you want to get clean this is the place to get advice and help. We are all addicts here. As a sponsor once told me "We will go through hell to help you out , but if you want to keep on using go to hell by yourself."
My first day clean I got so sick and scared I went to urgent care and was honest with the doc. I got a few pills to help me through the first few days.
In your case though. I would consider at least a in hospital detox.
Please don't choose to keep using. You will die.

[dancinkat69]

god i know!!! i just dont know what to do. im miserable.  what would be a good plan??

[IBKleen]

You want to use the percs to detox off the morphine? Not sure that is going to work for you, especially if you are taking 4 at a time. You have 11 left, they will be gone by tonight at that rate. I don't know, it doesn't sound like such a good plan. The withdrawal is going to hit you one way or the other hun.