In a angry and don mood

[carockwell2002]

I want to know what some people do if they are all out of there meds and are having cravings?  The other night I was having a really bad anxiety attack and I flushed over half my prescription pills down the toilet.  My drug of choice is adderall/amphetamine.  I have a LOVE/HATE relationship with them (read my past posts and you will learn more about my addiction).  I usually get really bad anxiety from them but on the other hand I also feel happy and feel like I achieve alot when im on them.  Im pissed off at the moment bc I took my last two pills today and Im out completely now.  If i didnt flush them down the toilet I would still have them.  I just want a pill right now and since I cant; what should I do to get over my anger for flushing them down the toilet and get rid of my cravings?????

[Cassie415]

Hey,
I know what you mean, I starting taking adderall a lot a year ago and when I would come off it, I had the worst anxiety, depression, mood swings, heart pain/racing heart, etc. I'm sure you know about that. Like everyone else said, the best thing you could do is get active in something else. If you like the adrenaline rush and energy of adderall maybe you can find it in a healthy outlet, some sort of activity or sport. I do not look back fondly on using adderall, it is like a roller coaster as you said, and basically a laboratory version of speed. I think if you can work on stopping you will start to feel much better and the anxiety will subside a lot.

[carockwell2002]

Yes i wish i could stop these, its hard bc I cant get over the mental aspect of it when Im not on them.  Maybe now since I cant get my prescription filled until 2 1/2 weeks, it will be long enough time to make me feel normal again.  Its just like a never ending rollar coaster ride.  I usually have really severe anxiety attacks on them but I still continue to take them bc I feel "normal" during the day.  My anxiety attacks occur at night usually bc I cant sleep and my mind is going crazy bc I take to many pills,  Its hard to explain every detail of what I put myself through.

[avisg]

Dumping the pills was the best thing you could have done exersise ,Go do something that will help you get threw .Try to be as be postive as you can about what you have done   your working towards getting clean thats great

[dominosarah]

Most of us get on here and post or we call our sponsor or a supportive friend.  I get myself busy and go outside and walk or turn on the music.

[dominosarah]

Are you wanting to stop these?  

[dellta]

exercise walk it off do somthing other than sitting there wanting them