Hello,
If anyone has any feedback please advise if possible. I have alwasy dibbled and dabbled with speed but never was addicted and never became dependant upon any drug or drink. 2 years ago I obtained a job in sales driving long distances for work and began eatin roxy's for energy, low and behold a month and a half later I hadn't even noticed that I had been taking them daily, I went out of townt to visit family and it clicked when I woke up the next morning. I was done. So I struggled with that for 2 years, trying to detox myself and excuses or not I could never put together more than 3 days and I was back at it, I couldn't sit there in my ****, shaking, cold ,hot, cold , hot, no appittite, feeling like death, and not to mention I have broken my bank acct also. I am sure I am the only one! ha I am a *******, any ways , I decided to try methadone, my present state is off of the roxy's and I can go a day or two, without any dones and then do a half or sometimes I do a half a day, I believe it's more mental than anything, (the daily part) but after the first day with nothing, here she comes with a big bat beating me (metaphorically) and I endulge in the half. Half of a 10 mg, my question is how bad is compaired to some others, not that it matters just don;t know anyone else to compair to? And how long will it take to detox? and how, if any tips! Thanks a lot I am desperate, I have had loved ones committ suicide and seen good people go straight down and loose themselves with this ****, I have to much to offer and I am good person, this is the only thing holding me back from being a better person, a better person to help others, and stop being selfish! I was sober for 1 1/2 years in AA and that was the best years of my life, being clear headed and seeing the light at the end of the tunnel, but once and addict always and addict! I want my life back , can anyone give me some advice!