Is this mind over matter?

[rooney30]

I'm now missing my 2nd day of work b/c of no lortabs left. I need to get through the w/d part before facing reality again, but no way in the world can i put myself into a hospital (which is probably what i need to do). I hope to God that I can face going in tomorrow. Thankfully, I have a great friend at work who knows exactly what I'm going through. Funny thing is with this LT addiction, I'm trying to convince myself that it's just a mental addiction. I once took a pill out of my purse and put it in my pocket,and forgot to take it. Wouldn't you know that 20-30 min. later, I felt a little High??!! I wish somehow that i could pop a tic-tac and mentally think it was an LT. That was just a one time event, but right then and there is when I realized that just the "thought" of taking one gets me a little rush. Yesterday I took 2, and I have one left, which I will probably take today,I'm guessing. That's a big cut from the usual 6 to 9 that i take a day. I can't taper at all. Yeah, so I made 3 LTs last 2 days, but that's not the appropriate way to taper. Any feedback would be appreciated. Thanks!

[bmac]

Well you said a mouth full.Welcome to our little part of
cyberspace.We are all addicts of some kind as you can tell.
Come join the fun.Life is only beginning for you,that is once that little demon,mindfuckingames start to hit ya!Sounds like you know it all to well.Post as often and as long as you like,hell they can't get rid of me here.Remember to just post where you like.There isn't enough threads for everyone to post their own,so just break in one and tell us all about that nasty Hydro habit you have.I only say that because I to have been down
this road before.Once again,welcome.
                               bmac

[CinCee]

Day 2 was way worse than day 3 which I am finishing now.  Today has been up and down but all in all, much better than yesterday.  There's tons of w/d advice here and the things I've tried have helped alot: vitamins (recipe), long hot showers (I don't have a tub), and at night (only at night) I'm taking benzos.

BTW, how do you totally chem-free people sleep at night during your first few days???  The restlessness drives me nuts until I take enough other stuff to pass out.

[Chezz]

Crunch. WOW what a post. Couldn't be more right on with the "ideal" drug.
I thought the same way. Wow, I can get f^%#$% and go to work, go shopping, ect. No problem, its prescribed, and I am in pain. Then you take more, more......

You will find alot of support and answers here. Way to JUMP right in. Your post pretty much summed it up for alot of people.
Chezz

[Chezz]

To you question. WE DONT.
Just jokin around. Withdrawls are different for everybody. I haven't had it at all this time. No going back now.

I remember a couple years ago when it happened(RLS). I was up all night, legs still going in the morning. Try to walk to make em feel better. Nothing helped. And the whole time I had no idea it had anything to do with the medicine. When I didn't have any more pain, I just stopped taking them. I didn't know about w/ds or anything.

I hope it gets better for you.
Chezz

[bmac]

Keep thinking that it is mental.Because the physical part will past and you will be left with the mental addiction we all have/had.As for the pill in the pocket.I remember going to the RX and just paying for them,I felt that buzz.Take a couple and before they hit my stomach I was mentally high already.That's that mindgame thing I have talked about before.It is so true that
addiction is 99% mental and 1% physical.You know that a week of physically feeling bad will go away especially when you use the
Famous Thomas recipe.That will give you back the vitamins and
minerals your body needs.When the mental thing gets to you
come here and tell us,cry,scream,yell,do what you need to
get better.That's why we are all here.You are not alone.
Welcome to addiction!!!It sux sometimes but it can teach you
something also.
                         bmac

[rooney30]

So are you saying that the mental part will never go away? Dear God, then I'll go write up a prescription now and stay on them for crying out loud!! I'm nothing but a bundle of nerves right now, and the thought of facing work tomorrow w/out them is making it worse. I guess it's the anticipation of getting on w/out them. I feel like i need to just do it,and stop thinking about how bad i may feel. Maybe it won't be that bad, but so far I haven't had too bad of the physical w/d, just the pacing of my apartment, and bouncing knee while sitting here typing. Hey, what is that recipe that everyone is talking about? I was looking through a bunch of comments, but i couldn't find it. Thanks for replying bmac!