Just Found out I am pregn,ant and am addicted to painkillers

[AshamedMariah]

Hi there, I have been abusing pain killers on and off for about 6 years. I just found out 1 week ago I am pregnant.  I have been taking 4 10 milligrams hydrocodones a day for the last few months.  I have 3, 5 mgs left. I wanted to taper but I am more addicted than I thought.  I am 5-6 weeks pregnant.  I am not sure what to do? Is the dose i was taking small enough to go cold turkey, although at this point i dont have enough to taper.  I am so ashamed so please avoid trying to make me feel any worse than what I already do.  Does anyone have any tips to make withdrawls easier?  HELP please.....I feel so desperate.

[MattyMo86]

Hey you can definately quit cokd turkey! Im on suboxone so unfortunately im srill battling stuff but my brother was taking 20 blue watsons a day and he cold turkeyed abd he went through the total withdrawal (there's no escaping that) but on day 5 he started to feel a WHOLE lot better! Plus you have a cheerleader in your stomach rooting you on!! Good luck!

[littlebit667]

Sounds like a plan!  You are to be congratulated for your strength!  Thanks for letting us know what happened.  Please keep checking with us..we love babies!

[Sonrissa]

Hi! I was not going to weigh in on this post because I have absolutely no experience being pregnant and addicted! I have read through the entire thing! I just have to say you are so amazing!! This took so much courage and yes you have put your baby's health and well being ahead of your addiction!  

I hope to see you stay around here for a long time! We see many posts from pregnant women who are in your similar situation! They are scared and ashamed and desperate! You are truly an inspiration! You have so much to offer here! Please keep us updated on your progress! We really care! Also, stick around you can give many women hope! Take care and all the best to you! Big hug!!

[adgal]

I just read through this.  I work for a non profit agency and a part of what we do is help women who are in exactly your situation.  So I see this all the time.  I just want to tell you that I think you are absolutely fabulous!  What you did took a lot of courage and strength.  It is clear to me that your first priority is that baby and that is pretty telling as to the kind of mother you will be (and already are).  You should be incredibly proud of yourself and I know that your story will inspire a lot of other women.  I honestly wish that I could reach right through this screen and give you a big hug.  You have absolutely nothing to be ashamed of and a great deal to be very very proud of.  I wish you nothing but the best!!  I wish everyone would be brave enough to take the steps you just did.  Way to go momma!!!

[dominosarah]

I am so proud of you~~That took alot of strength and courage to do what you did.  I am also very happy your doctor was so helpful and understanding.  Make sure you keep being honest with her.  Keep talking with us on here.  We care about you and the baby~~~sara

[AshamedMariah]

Just got back from the Dr. She was very, very kind.  Thank goodness.  She even hugged me when I left.  She prescribed me 30 pills and gave me specific instructions on when to take.  She said to take two for 5 days, then 1.5 for 5 days, then 1 for 5 days and so on.  SHe has me scheduled to see her next week.  She told me that with the baby and me taking the pills, it was all or nothing, basically meaning I will miscarry if I stayed on the path and increased dosage or the baby would be born and be fine.  I do NOT want to lose the baby so I will follow her instructions exactly.  When i left there I even texted my contact that i get them from and said to please never contact me again i do not want any part of the pills.  I am going to block her number too just in case.  I do feel better, even though it was so humiliating for me to tell her I got it off my chest and will ge off the right way.  The good thing is I am sure she can check if I am still on them when I visit her so its yet another good reason to make sure I am doing what she says.  Thank you everyone, I will keep posting.  If I wouldnt have got on here, I wouldnt have found the courage to call my dr.  Thank you.