Just one?? Help!

[On2better]

I'm over at THAT relatives house (you know... The one with the candy jar?) I'm feeling really tempted to just take one. I know I can't! I'm getting anxious just considering it. I'm on day 15... I can't go back. Just looking for a slap in the face herr

[IBKleen]

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[Mushsboys]

U have been doing great for 15 days ur smarter than that. Just get the hell out of there and don't go to a place where u could or would b tempted!!!

[CATUF]

PEOPLE, PLACES & THINGS

early in recovery it is absolutely essential to avoid all people, places and things associated with our active addiction.  there is no better or quicker road to relapse.  

it's not about being strong, it's not about resisting anything, it's not about proving anything.  it's about staying safe from a relentlessly progressive disease that will ultimately land you in a coffin, a jail or and institution unless you force it to stay in remission.

in recovery, staying safe means avoiding the danger.  you get the F away and you stay the F away from everyone, everyplace and everything that presents a danger of relapse.

stay safe - and don't change your clean date, no matter what.

CATUF
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[kyle505]

I told my family - get this - on day 3 of my detox. Why I chose to do it then I'm not sure...Maybe I used the hell I was experiencing as motivation. If I'd have waited I'm not sure if I would have. And, your family may surprise you. Mine did. In fact, I started crying like a baby when they hugged me. Embarrassed the hell out of my kids!

[On2better]

Oops I didn't mean to select that as the best answer, no offense Pat! The only thing I can do to prevent being around them is come clean to my family. Eventually.... :-/

[On2better]

Just saw your response. I know deep down you are right, Kyle. I know I need to tell them. I've actually been formulating ways to bring it up to the rest of my family. Replaying the conversation over and ocer in my mind. But I'd like some more sober time under my belt. I'm just not ready yet. In the mean time I'll just have to have my parents at my place until I'm ready to tell them my dirty secret. At what point did you make amends to your family? Thank you so much for your replies and honesty

[On2better]

Thanks again everyone. I'm home, safe and sound! It feels great to have overcome such a strong temptation.

[kyle505]

Ok - don't get upset, but keeping this secret is keeping the door wide open to relapse. We all have told friends and family about our addiction - next to the actual detox it was the hardest thing that I did. I am a father and husband - bread winner, the rock, problem solver...the one my wife and kids come to for "wisdom" and guidance. Imagine how I felt when I sat them down and told them that I'd been living a lie for 15 years! But if I hadn't I would have relapsed by now. If you don't tell your family then you are just clearing the path to relapse. Your mind will never let up. Something will happen - life will happen - and you will be weak, will have forgotten the days of detox hell - and a voice will whisper that just one won't hurt. And then you're back dancing with the devil...

[scaredmommy2005]

I obviously didn't read your last post. Good job!

[scaredmommy2005]

H3ll no!!! You are better then that and you know it!!! I have been in my own house all day with 1 pill and I am only on day 2 and I didn't take it! I even went to an interview today which sucked having no energy but I went and got through it without letting anybody know the pain I was feeling on the inside. I'm flushing that pill tonight as soon as my mom gets here. I didn't do it early because I wanted her to see me do it and not think my addiction caused me to take it and lie to her about it. We can do this!! When you feel weak remember you have the strength of all of us here with you. I can't wait to get my 15 days back! Be proud of yourself!!!!

[akitagurl12]

you are so awesome that you came here first!  Another battle won!  Thats all its about, reaching out for positive help in the heat of the moment!  You would have totally regretted it too if you had taken 'just one'.  That was great of your husband too:)

[conhall]

I am glad your hubby sent you a picture of your kiddos . You do have alot to lose and its just not worth it.  Congrats on day 15 and also for reaching out for support.

[Pat1956100]

Good for you for posting.  It really helps when you are craving.  

[day143]

=D

[On2better]

Thanks you guys. I've come too far to fall. Thank you so much. I'm so glad to be able to reach out. I just talked to my husband and he texted me a picture of my kids. That really helped to remind me what i have to lose.  And I'm over here because, well, it's my parents house. I can't not come over here.... My elderly grandma lives with them and the meds are hers. I can't open up to them about this. I just can't do it! The craving has weakened. I'll be ok, just needed to reach out. Thanks so much for the support you guys

[Sonrissa]

NO NO NO!! You know better!

[day143]

Don't do it!!!! Leave don't go backwards :(

[kyle505]

Leave if you can...Unless its a life or death situation, you should never be in that house unless you have them hide the meds.
I'm fishing here - not sure why you go over there, but if it's purely social then you are being foolish - playing with fire. I'm almost 7 months clean and really don't know if I could control myself. Not good.

[Bkitty]

Noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!! Get outta there NOW!