Just shy of 8 months

[Dane74]

Hello to all, i just wanted to share  that there is light at the end of this long journey.  It has been a heck of a time for me to get and stay clean, with allot of challenges and tests along the way, but somehow i have managed to succeed thus far.  I know this is a forever battle, but what i am finally noticing is that with time it does become easier, and the cravings/thoughts are getting better each and everyday.  I have learned so much going through this journey and one thing that stands out the most is that us addicts are strong willed and fighters, when we put our minds to it, we can do it!!!!!   Life is starting to come back to normalcy for me, yes after 8 months, but i can now say i smile again, i wake up and feel alive not like a lump on a log, and my kids notice that i am not so darn cranky.  I feel  again, sometimes thats a good thing and sometimes not, but overall its a great feeling.  Aftercare is a must, i still see my therapist and I'm sure i will for a long time, getting to the "root" is something that i have and continue to struggle with but with professional help I'm working on it, and learning the tools to cope.  I am still amazed that i became an addict and it took me a long time to realize it, maybe being on the bathroom floor after i passed out was a wake up call?? Reaching my bottom and finally coming to my senses that i was on the road to self destruction and really fast, was the scariest challenge that i had ever faced.  And i just owe so many of my friends right here on medhelp a huge shout out  for not giving up on me and for convincing me that i did indeed need help and fast, i cant thank you all enough and you know who you are!!!! I look back and see how low i really was and i am still in shock, wow, i have come a long way, and i will continue to fight this battle because i now know that living my life on opiates was not living.  This is a fight that we all have to endure but guys its so worth it, i promise you that, just to feel empowered that you turned down your DOC or didn't cave to temptation is just an amazing feeling of victory.  Thank you so very much to medhelp and especially to my friends here, without you guys, i would either be 6 feet under or close to it.   I am so very grateful for you guys!!!  

[littlebit667]

So what's your point??  you mean an addict can be clean??  You did it girl and should be proud!  Listen to her, if she and I can do it...it can be done!

[Norco1947]

Hi , Nice positive post , Enjoy every day ... Ron

[keith187]

Hi dane,congatulations on making it to 8 months.Still bangin my head against the wall as to why i relapsed.And not sure if i am ready to dig that deep yet.Just getting through the week without getting loaded is hard enough.Thank you for posting it is good to see people are staying clean.......Keith

[ImDONENoMore]

Dana, girl, you never cease to amaze me...  I am SO freaking proud of you!!!

[akitagurl12]

I am so grateful for YOU!!  You continue to inspire me all the time....whatever challenges are thrown your way, you always pull through & then share your wisdom and inner strength with others.  I am so glad to be walking this path with you:)

[vicki595]

Very nicely done...against all  odds!  Isn't that a song??    LMAO

[ImDONENoMore]

Yes it is - a movie too (I think?) - but either way, our girl dana ROCKS... (you really do honey).. dana, I am so glad you are my friend.

[Teresa1717]

Great job on 8 months (or just shy of :) ) ! Gives the rest of us newly into recovery immense hope!! I love seeing long term successes like this! Thanks for posting!

[metadontkillme]

8 months is an amazing accomplishment!!! I look forward to the day when I can post that. Keep looking forward! ;)

[vicki595]

Phil Collins ... LOL

[ImDONENoMore]

YES!

[Teresa1717]

Against all odds....Great song AND great movie BTW.. :) Love Phil Collins! (cant believe I admitted that out loud! haha)

[quitinoxys]

Dana I knew you would make it once you put your mind heart and soul into it. Congrats on eight months you should be very proud of yourself as I and everyone here are of your accomplishment.  So Keep on Keepin on. God Bless---Rick

[vicki595]

Im trying to remember what the movie was about...I just remember Rachel Ward and all her angst!!  

Dana probably remembers it....or maybe not...she's a little young!

[quitinoxys]

I hope you keep going as relapses happen to the best of us. Have you tried aftercare as it makes all the difference between staying sober---Rick

[ImDONENoMore]

Wish I could say I was too young to remember it.. but NOPE!  Rachel Ward and all her angst... I remember!  lol

[vicki595]

HAHAHA!  I know...

[Dane74]

Thank you all so much!!!!!  Vicki and Imdone, yep i must be too young...LMAO, cause i don't have a clue.....

[Teresa1717]

It was with Rachel ward and Jeff bridges! He was an Ex-Football player who was hired by his friend who was this  gangster guy to find his G/f Who was Rachel ward. He found her and snatched her up and fell in love with her. She was definitely a tormented soul in this movie!  lol

Now I have to watch it again!

[Teresa1717]

I think it came out in the late 80's

[ImDONENoMore]

haha - GREAT memory teresa!  OK and dana girl- did you HAVE to tell us that?  lol -

[Teresa1717]

HA! I have a horrible memory unless it involves cheesy 80's movies! hahaha I wish I could say I was too young to remember this! Ouch! lol

[Teresa1717]

Great, Cant get the song out of my head now! thanks for that! LOL

[lis3d]

Such an inspiring message to those of us who wish they were 8 months clean. I know it had to be a huge struggle and I'm proud of you. I hope soon I will have 8 months under my belt too :)