Who am I... (just an addict / alcoholic )

[BrotherFrankie]

i looked through the guidelines to see if this post was in accordance with the posting criteria. If it does not please delete it.

I was asked on this forum these past few days who I am. I am a fellow addict / alcoholic first. Second i am a man committed to service work in recovery as a way to keep my recovery grounded and on track. (12 step work)

I am not better than anyone and am only one day away from a relapse. I dont count my years of clean time. I answer folks who ask what chip, or how long and i always say the white one. Sometimes i answer "today" as my sober date. I am only one relapse away from that white chip anyway.

I teach an addiction recovery class as well as counsel many. But, i am still one pick up away from continuing on the path that leads to death.

I often come across folks posting their dislike for me. I am sorry you feel that way. seeing words in text, I'ms, etc.... often leads to this. Emails are another bad way to judge people. We cannot see the tears in their eyes or smile on their face. We cannot hear the tone of voice. we dont know their intent..we do not know their heart...

Lets face it. we are almost all addicts here and tend to respond as addicts. Gasp..... really   LOL :)

My sponsors keep me in check. I hate them often, i love them unconditionally tho. i hope you feel that way about me.. hate me but love me anyhow..

If i offended anyone on here because of my gruff manner i am sorry and ask forgiveness.

If i have hurt you by making you realize you are an addict and are powerless over your addiction and need to start being honest in all areas of your life... tough, get over it... (ill buy you a coffee and talk to you after you make a ,meeting and pick up a chip)

To get a better idea of what i do here is a link.

http://thegatheringlakeside.org/2011/04/dapper-dan-rehab-update/


it fits within the guidelines of substance abuse. This is only one example of who I help. There are dozens. Today there are two alcoholics in my home of no relation to me that i have walked thru detox and am awaiting a bed in long term care and sober living. i want no applause or pat on the back.

I do want and covet your prayers that I may be a better man, kinder and more caring, less me and more others.... a better dad and husband.. a better neighbor and mentor.. sober..

pray that its God, everyone else, then me.. i cannot stay sober without help, i cannot stay sober alone..

in love
Brother Frankie

[Jimmy1975]

Great post there Brother Frankie and well said ! I have lost three siblings to substance abuse and refuse to be the fourth ! God Bless..Jimmy

[sudie58]

you will be in my prayers, you say so little, yet so much. god bless

[ImDONENoMore]

I'm glad - you can never have too many friends!!  :)

[10356]

Prayers are going up BrotherFrankie for your continued sobriety..  warmly lesa

[BrotherFrankie]

ok, i know you dont like my few word responses but i have to do it..

THANKS!!!! u made my afternoon.

:)

[ImDONENoMore]

I appreciate this post and it helps me to understand.  Thank you.