Lets keep the open floor

[OxyDout]

I think the open question idea is a good one, but if someone else thinks different then I will stop, but anyway I did something last night that I think can definitely help anyone keep their mind off of drugs.  My girlfriend bought me rollerblades last night and we went out rollerblading around 9:30pm last night.  It was incredible, it was one of those things that I forgot was so much fun.  We had the summer night, cool air, and we were flying up and down the streets...... And the thing that was even better was that I was sharing it with the girl I love. SHE bought something that FINALLY made me realize I WANT TO BE SOBER!!! It was the most incredible feeling, I WAS FREE!!!! Well, that is my two cents.  I haven't been doing so well with the tapering, I found the "stash" oh boy, I have found out that the only way i can do this is to go through the hell, but don't get me wrong, I didn't eat like 15 vic's in a day, I just haven't been sticking to the taper as wel as I should be.  

Well, I hope all is well, and please post often today.  

GROOVY WHERE ARE YOU!!!! I HAVEN'T HEARD FROM YOU, OH, I BOUGHT MY ROLLERBLADES AT THE LIBERTY TREE MALL!!

[roro]

well here goes its getting much worse....  i cant stand the cramps and my head aches, cant sleep i feel like **** but i am gonna stick with this pain.  I am holding onto the thought that it will get better..  I also got the shakes and twitches...  Dr. is on Vacation so iam doin this one alone cold turkey..  bye for now thanks for posting

[Tessa]

I don't post much (very rarely), but I read everyone's posts everyday....That being said...  Tex3,I think you are a very strong and wonderful person.... If only I/we (all of us) could be as strong and determined as you....You are truly an inspiration! Keep posting!   Although I'm not clean yet, I feel the time is coming very soon for me, and your "words of wisdom" (as well as MANY others!) help tremendously.  Thanks ever-so-much for giving me hope!

[tex3]

One thing helped me through the darkest days, though it might sound trite. When I thought I couldn't take the hell anymore, I reminded myself that in a week, or month or whatever, that amount of time would have passed and I could either be a month older and still struggling with drugs because I gave in, and still be in a horrible place, or I could tough it out and I'd be a month older and be clean and through the worst of it. Now I'm three months older and I'm clean. If I would have caved during those early days, I'd be paying the price all over again and not reaping the benefits now. Make sense? You have to pay the price, one way or another, so best to get it the hell out of the way and move on. I reminded myself of that, all the time.

[skipper]

gwh:
money (or lack of) just isn't worth a panic attack. this is easy
for me to say, 'cause i'm not the one having a panic attack!

there is a way through this. you've been in worse spots ('cause of drugs) than this!

the best thing you can do with all this is not forget the way you
feel now. next time an oxy starts talking to ya' about how just a
few won't hurt ya'...well try to remember how awful you feel
right now!

don't really know what else to say...."everybody pays their dime
to hear the band!" i can't even begin to tell you how many times
i've been through exactly what you're going through...and guess
what...this is just the tip of the iceburg!

even though you ****** up here, i'm still going to love and care
about you and there just isn't anthing you can do about it! so
get an angel on your shoulder
kip

[tex3]

You've cut your dose enough that you're probably really going through WDs now. Are you planning to cold turkey it at home, or taper? If you can talk to your doctor and get a "cocktail" to detox it really helps. It includes a muscle relaxer, anti-anxiety, stomach meds, clonidine, and possibly a sleeping pill that's non-addictive (I took doxepin). This all helps tremendously because it basically masks your WD symptoms, although you still won't feel great and will spend the days in bed. If you can't do that, search here for the "recipe" which many use; it's vitamins and amino acids. I still take it and feel great. You're killing your kidneys with all the ibuprofen right now, so stear clear of anything with that in it. How are you doing right now? You'll get through this, but the mental stuff sucks too. Once you're through that, though, you'll feel like a new person. Your body has to produce its own endorphins again because the pills have taken over that role, so until that happens (a few weeks) you'll be depressed and lethargic and weepy, possibly. I was and thought it would always be that way. But it isn't, so have hope. Let us know how you are please. You'll find many caring people here.
tracy

[tex3]

I think you're okay on the bup. I used it a few times when I ran out of norco and was WDing bad. It totally took away the symptoms. After the bup you'll still have to deal with the mental stuff but as far as physical it's minimal. I also quit bup after months of use (for pain) and was fine, just kind of tired and depressed but nothing like after regular opiates. Good luck and let us know how it goes.
tracy