Long time addiction

[tripmom777]

Hi, I'm a 35 yr. old mother of 4 yr. old triplets. I have severe arthritis and migraines and other aches and pains all the time. I've been addicted to opiates for over 10 years and now my husband is fed up. I went through inpatient and outpatient treatment about 2 yrs. ago and was clean for over a year. the pain came to be overwhelming and I started in again with my dr.'s help at monitoring it. I know sometimes I'm ok and take what's rx. but other times I do abuse or overuse what I have because then I run out. Now I see a pain specialist and am on ms contin 30 mg. and percocets. My husband wants me off everything and thinks I should be able to do everything w/ the house and the kids and w/ no complaining ever! I guess I just need a place to vent and hear suggestions on what others have been through. I've been thinking about suboxone and how it might help.
thanks!

[IBKleen]

Hi & Welcome,

I feel your pain from here. I live with chronic pain and I do know what it is like to have the pain seemingly control your life.

Since you have been on the pain meds for so long, I need to ask---When was the last time you went without them for a period of time? I ask because I know for myself, and I am sure others will agree, I found that my pain level decreased after I had been off of the pain pills for a time. Don't misunderstand, I still have pain but today it is manageable. While I was taking the meds the pain was worse, so I took more pills, then the pain got worse, so I took more pills..you get where I am going.

If you can consider getting off of the medication for a bit you can then assess your pain level and perhaps come up with alternative treatments with your doctor. And you can ask here and in the pain management community how others control their pain.

I very rarely recommend maintenance drugs such as Suboxone. What is it you were thinking of taking the Suboxone for? Please, before making any decisions, do your homework and do research and ask others who have completed the program.

I hope you stick around. there is great support here.

[sudie58]

i really feel for you, you have got your hands full, but im sure you would handle it a lot better without those pills you are taking, like the previous poster, they may be ok for short term use, but now you are addicted , as i was , and many are, you keep running out , because your abusing them, your in a horrible vicious circle, and deserve more ,as do your family,  i know you say "you just want a place to vent and hear", but will you listen and act on what you hear? your life could be so much better,  the thing with the suboxone route is its another drug to get addicted to, what ever you decide, i really wish you the best, god bless,   sudie

[justneedtotalk]

Hello....I am going to have to agree with your husband.  We are all atticts no matter what you would like to tell yourself.  I feel for your condition and pain.  There are a lot of non-narcotic pain relievers.  There is no real end to narcotic pain relievers.  They serve a purpose but only in the short term.  When I would take a small break and detox through a couple of weeks I would notice that my pain was not as bad, even when on the pills.  I think our brains will do anything to achieve its fix!  I am by no means one to talk, I am 2.5 days sober and on my way to a lifetime sobriety....I am around your same age and I too have a young family.  Our bodies cannot handle continued pain meds without breaking down at some point.  Take a look at your babies and know that all of this time that you are high is time you will not remember 5 years from now.....Give yourself the chance to experience life sober.....I know that it is better than a life tied down to pills!  I hope you have the chance to take a good hard look at your life and listen to your husband....They deserve to have mommy back!  Good luck and God Bless!